I’m Still Here

(I’m ALLOWED TO BE HORNY ONLINE)

Partly money but partly like what if I do this and then right when I leave all the work I did finally comes to fruition? Idk I’ve always struggled so much with what ifs and the grass always being greener some place else and I need to focus on what makes me happy and fills my cup ect ect and being content with where I am

I just hate sitting here with nothing to go and I can’t make my own art or sew or anything bc I’m in this fucking warehouse and if he’d just let me work from home at least in down times I could be doing that! But he’ll never be okay with that

And at least at my barista job there is actually always something to go so it feels less like I’m just wasting a day and then getting home somehow too tired and stressed about the nothing that happened and whether or not I’m going to get a talking to about fucking Instagram posts