Meadow's Blog

They think the most saintly thing you can do is care for someone disables but don't care about the emotions the disabled person themselves feel. Once you reach a certain threshold of disability, people stop seeing you as on the same level of humanity as everyone else. So the thought of a disabled person actually having negative emotion towards this help is shocking to them.

Sympathy is handed out to those exhausted and hurt from having to care for disabled people (which is fine), but not those whom may be in the process of mourning their own bodies/ability/mind. We can show a nurse/doctor having a breakdown, have entire genres of show and movie and book revolve around it, but if a disabled person lashes out thats seen as something much crueler in the eyes of the typical viewer. Its spoken about in the same vein of a dog who bites and thus "needs to be put down".

A voice cries out between two worlds. It tastes quite unlike corn syrup.

"It cannot be here, and cannot be with me. So, where is your favored place?"

"...the cave. They say The Basilica is for me, but I see it for what it is. A prison, just for me. In this cave, in this exile, I am myself. I can only ever be myself there."

"You shine with a beloved blessing. Are you not special?"

"I am nothing but a humble guide for my betters. I am no Hierophant, I am no Saint. I am merely a tool. A means to an end. My 'blessing' is not a talent, but merely my lot. I am no one special."

"Many and more are out there, spinning into stardust, dancing in anticipation of your arrival. Are you not excited to meet them?"

"How can I be excited when meeting them is my purpose? I lost what I was made for. I lost that part of myself that is to create. The only path left is to meet them. The only path left is to help them. The only path left is to be what they need me to be."

"I see, I see. You are a possession decidedly dispossessed. Then... is there anything you cannot let go of?"

"...them. Their smile. Their laughter. The way they could control an entire room. Their debates with me. The chess matches and tea and the cricket. How they could strike up the band, and take the attention of the others away from me for a while. How they used to hold me..."

"Do you love the color of the sky?"

"You should know. You should know these skies are only black and screaming. Twinkling with unlight stars in a thousand different colors as it spreads from the foundation into the firmament. It is...beautiful. It is great and terrible."

"But the real sky is not for me..."

"Capricorn, hermit in the dark, seer past the millennium. I don't know how, but I've found your cards for you."

"The first, fate and the turning of the wheel. Infinite possibility, rolling over and over itself."

"The Ruler of Everything"

"Second, what you are; how interesting, the way it turns against you."

"To be alone is my strength. My weakness. My blessing. My curse"

"And the third... oh, that's a mirror. Here, face yourself."

"Ah...quite so...it couldn't really be anything else, could it?"

Don't Forget, I'm with you in the dark. I found these absolutely stunning renders made by the animator Ilikeducks, and was inspired to make some custom designs using them. Go give them a follow, they make great stuff.

So are we noticing a pattern yet

So are we noticing a pattern yet

So are we noticing a pattern yet

You can download her files RIGHT HERE!!!

I took heavy reference of Chubbidust's shimejies!! So if you have any of those she is at the same scale as them!

You need to have downloaded the shimeji program yourself, just extract the zip and place her in the img folder of the program and she should be good!

After the new patch I added in a new sprite for her!! The Google Drive file has been updated!!

The sprite has been added to the pool of reactions she can do when you poke her face as well as a really small chance for her to do it on her own, if you are too impatient and/or unlucky it's also in her actions list!

Like not the horrible video on hrt, no of course not. Loudly and proudly declaring "we don't hire transfems here at scishow"? Nobody gives a shit!

ok this is kinda nuts bc while AI tools can be good for quickly locating a large body of SECONDARY sources for your given project and can even be good for combing the occasional website for primary sources, there is absolutely nothing in the technology that can assemble the stuff necessary for a full article (bc you are pulling from openly available stuff so people in your field will have accessed this stuff before you, its not going to be new and pathbreaking primary sources) and two, while it can be helpful to let ai generate a first draft just to see your ideas on a page, you're going to have to make the AI iterate on that thing like a dozen times just for it to be kinda where you want it and even then you will need to spend days going through and editing and rewriting it bc its AI, the writing style will always be straight ass.

...You find yourself in a vast ocean. Treading water. Are you on the surface? Below the waves? You've got no hair to indicate this.

Someone's swimming beneath you. A microphone, wet and sparking, is held to your face. It tastes nothing like Flamin' Hot Nacho Cheese.

“You're a 'Star Athlete'. What strengths and magics within you make that so?" * I always play fair and I never give up. * Those are the two most important aspects of sportsmanship! "Do you have any passions or desires outside of sports?" * I've pretty much dedicated my entire life to baseball, but I also think math is fun. * It's like a bunch of little number puzzles. "Your coaches and teammates should know you. How'd they describe you, if I asked?" * "She's reliable", I hope! "If your team had a mascot, how would you want it to be?" * Hmm... A mascot for the KNIGHTS... * I'm kind of imagining a creepy-looking black knight, like the one from that old pinball game. * Maybe it'd have a baseball bat instead of a sword.

"When I try to open this face... I can't see any women playing in the MLB. What's your plan for when you grow up?" * ... * I'll make it work. * I have to. "I see, I see... thank you, North Star, knight of the third base, pinch-hitter past the millennium. Before you leave me behind... here. Make sure to bring someone’s justice..."

"...and watch out for cars."

"And the third... oh, that's a mirror. Here, face yourself."

* (You've got your game face on.) * (Like always.)

Genuinely surprised to see this from Jamie p and super glad as well. I feel like it's become such a pattern of seeing white queer creators casually say some racist shit or something to come out and then never properly apologize.

So seeing Jamie Paige be outright "No fuck y'all stupid racist white teens, she'd rather stop making music catering to you than let you make a fool of her art" is incredibly refreshing and makes me glad that to be a fan of hers and feel both seen and comfortably safe knowing that for once someone has the decency not to be a racist piece of shit!

Also go listen to Slayr right now! I remember hearing a couple of his songs before, and liking all of them, and this one is no different. Honestly I hope we get to see more hip-hop sampling and remixes of vocaloid music because its so so cool and wish it was done more often.

A bit more self explanatory, but I'm glad he's confident to state it for the people in the back that Vocaloid isn't just a white people thing. It's a bit bittersweet to me in a sense that a lot of black creators online feel the need to hide themselves, but I definitely understand (I'm guilty of this sometime too the way Tumblr acts sometimes) but I'm glad to see that people are being more openly anti racist for once and I hope this trend doesn't stop.

Also I know it's already his most popular song, but it is such a banger too, go listen to this and the rest of his vocaloid music too!