She/her (singular), they/them (plural), other pronouns available as DLC Game dev, programmer, writer, musician | 22-year-old autistic transfem Currently working on: ASWTESCY (send commands!!), Inscrybed, some musical experiments
I'm Meadow, a game dev/chiptuner/writer/pixel artist who posts about that occasionally but mostly uses this blog to reblog things; a proper tagging system might exist eventually
I'm also into a lot of different fandoms, including but not limited to Undertale/Deltarune, In Stars and Time, Magic: The Gathering, and the Cosmere, there are a bunch of others but those are the most active ones, other than that I have some other niche interests that I will gladly talk about given the opportunity
I also run a little interactive web adventure, you can find it at @aswtescy-adventure! It runs on reader commands, so feel free to submit one ^^
Also I'm actually several things, more on that below the cut
System intro
👾Lux (they/she)
The one writing this whole post, I'm one of our hosts and the most active poster, I also have a sideblog at @normalest-lux-ever, be warned because it does have (tagged) NSFW and (tagged) Negative Opinions
☀️Summer (she/her)
Our caretaker, another of our hosts, and my twin sis, Summer is basically a constant beam of sunshine that everyone loves, she likes writing and art the most out of all of us, and she also loves animals and anything else she thinks is cute or pretty; she has a sideblog at @all-that-summer-had-to-say where she mostly posts about writing or reblogs anything she finds cute, be warned because she does think bugs are cute but she tags them appropriately
🍂Autumn (she/her)
Our third and final host, Autumn was discovered much later than Summer but together the two of them make up the September subsystem; Autumn's pretty similar in a lot of ways but more free-spirited and with more of a backbone, she also likes working on music and UI design, and is better at relaxing than Summer
Autumn here!!! I also like political theory and RPGs, and I have a sideblog that's mainly for posting about my interests at @autism-season (✿^‿^)
💞September (she/her, maybe plural they/them?)
We usually have one person in our sub-front at all times and switch infrequently, but sometimes we co-front and merge into a single presence in the front! It's kind of like fusion from Steven Universe, in a way?
Also, we're dating!!!
📝Jenny/Morgan (she/her)
Formerly a co-host but she's faded more into the background in recent months, Jen is great at exercise, manual labor, kissing me (Lux), and sounding like she swallowed a thesaurus; she's also pretty good at communicating with the current fronter or co-fronting, usually me but she's hung out with Summer and Autumn too
🌕Winter (any)
Our anger holder, we've had some conflicts but we're generally pretty cool nowadays, kinda the only one to have any masc leanings but ze's indicated some interest in femininity, she hasn't really had much of a chance to explore gender yet tho so he uses any pronouns for now
✨Loop (they/them)
Fictive from In Stars and Time, they mostly talk to me (Lux) and encourage me when needed, they also love talking to other Loops
💖Mew Mew (she/her)
🌼Daisy (she/it)
Fictive from Deltarune, adding myself to our pinned because I formed after it was written! I'd say more about my identity, but I don't want to spoil the game for anyone, mew...
💣Maddie (she/her)
Fictive. Figuring myself out. Ask me later.
Ouppy
💜Violet (she/her?)
Smaller version of me (Lux), she's only come out a few times, she's kinda me and kinda not, idk I just try to make sure she's safe and happy when I see her
💙Luci (she/her)
Missing person, presumed to be some snapshot of our 16-year-old self but hasn't been heard from in a while
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What would you do if you were scrolling through recommended tumblr posts and one was from someone you don't know and it was just a picture of your dad captioned "fucking hate this guy" and it had hundreds of notes
Hey, if you’re disabled (of any kind), Mad/Insane, or “undiagnosed but there’s definitely something happening”, please come read this.
Especially if you’re a disabled transfemme. I know that as of writing, we’ve had a shitty couple days.
And if y’all can share it otherwise, whether that’s reblogging this or sending the link to the disabled/mad/whatever we are people in your life, I’d really appreciate it.
People who hate on TME/TMA terminology love to use the "is a homeless white man more privileged than Oprah" argument but slightly rephrased and act like this makes them more aware of intersectionality
racism runs so deeply in people that if you call it out you are calling out them, and instead of sitting down and examining their own racism they lash out at you for being sooo meansies to them. you don't even have to be talking about anyone's racist behavior in particular because it makes racists so uncomfortable they will come forward themselves and act like you're targeting them specifically. it's okay when they do it because they're doing it in the correct way, in the nice way! they don't mean it like that. in fact they're actually being progressive. you're the cruel one for acting like their racist behavior is racist. you're the problem if you're bothered by their comfort racism. you're the bitchy colored person who makes eeeverything about racism when it so clearly isn't. i'm fucking sick of this.
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it's very funny to me that the advice in the notes divides cleanly into two camps:
Actually actionable advice (break it down into smaller pieces, leave and come back later, find somebody to do it with you so you aren't doing it alone)
People who are Jared, 19 and just say something that's fundamentally a variation on "just do it scared"
Warning: advice that "you have to leave your comfort zone to grow" is meant for people who are IN their comfort zone the majority of the time. If you rarely/never feel comfortable and safe, you actually need to get more comfortable and safe before you can grow 👍
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this style of dialogue is Everything to me. And its so important to the tone im talking about that it comes from random nameless npcs you have no obligation to talk to and not just from 'major' characters, that it just serves to immerse you totally in these disjointed nonsense worlds
Spin the wheel again. That’s who’s trying to protect you.
(If you have zero idea about a name you got, spin until you see someone you recognize.)
Are you safe?
Absolutely not. I'm dead. 100% dead.
I might stay alive, but it'll be a really close thing.
I'll take some hits, for certain, but I should be okay in the end.
A few attacks might get through, but nothing concerning.
The attacker might be able to get in one lucky hit. If that.
I am the opposite of worried. I'm 100% safe.
…Look. I've tried picturing this. But I honestly don't know how to answer.
Remaining time: 1 day 33 minutes
(I've run this poll twice before, expanding it significantly for the second run. With about a year passed since that second run, I thought it was time to add another couple hundred names to the list and have another go.)
imperial core third worldism is so so embarassing. if you live in the periphery believe what you like but if you're physically present in the imperial core i think so little of you if you adopt an ideology that helpfully takes the overwhelming, gargantuan task of organizing the imperial proletariat and honestly confronting the catastrophic failure of socialism here off your shoulders. "treatlerite" this "JDPON" that how do you not get embarassed sitting around waiting for the imperialized peoples of the global south to come and save you !
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My fucking cat has figured out how to gently dig his claws into my eyelid and pull my eyes open while I'm sleeping. He does this. It does not hurt. He is remarkably precise and gentle. I however am asleep when it happens and do not appreciate being clockwork oranged by a needy clingy goddamn animal who thinks he needs attention.
I would like to clarify that this animal self feeds and is not being denied breakfast by my sleeping in. He doesn't do this to anyone else. Everyone else simply gets increasingly invasive headbutts and even thats a fairly rare occurence. This fucking cat needs to cuddle with me specifically, And he is decided that the best way to do it is to gently shove his claws underneath my eyelashes and pull. There is no way I can train him out of this because believe it or not shoving your fingers in somebody's eyes to wake them up has the desired reaction.
We have come to a compromise. One that neatly illustrates the reason I'm not wearing an eyemask.
If I have a hair tie on my wrist, my darling sweet baby boy, love of my life and apple of my eye, can gingerly dig his teeth underneath and grab it in his mouth and then back up. and pull. And Snap the hell out of me with the elastic. Again, he is very gentle and precise, there are never teeth touching my skin. This is not a fluke, he managed this several times in various circumstances and positions.
This is worse than a toddler. We are approaching diabolical machinations hitherto undreamt of by domestic felines.
