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scared prey animal symbolism is fun and all but i LOVEEE like. really fucking aggressive prey animal symbolism. animal that straight up tears you to shreds because its scared of you. animal that attacks anyone in sight because it feels threatened all the time. animal that sees threats to life in kind gestures by beings it does not recognize. animal that will literally kill you because its so ungodly scared of everyone

what a mother does for you out of obligation vs what a mother does for you because she wants to. the taste of a cup of coffee made from obligation vs. the taste of a cup of coffee made. did you raise me because you wanted to or did you raise me because you had to, because i was in your home and you thought, i have to put food in every mouth under this roof. did you look at me with love or did you look at me. did you ever look at me? did you ever see me? did you want to? do you want to still? if i asked you to love me would you laugh? would you ask me why? would you tell me to not ask such stupid questions? would you go to bed and wonder to yourself, why does she think i don’t love her? i’ve done everything for her i’ve bathed her i’ve clothed her i’ve fed her i kept a roof over her head. isn’t that love? do you even know? do you know what love looks like? did your mother love you? did she make you coffee? can you tell me what it tasted like?

i think i relate to the victorian gothic genre so heavily because i too am a sickly little bitch with a disturbing passion for the morbid and grotesque

i’m the kid at the party who walks around the house looking at family photos and goes through your bookshelves