Matt McCown

I cry out and no one helps

I live in hell did I forget

I can’t wake up from this nightmare

I break down my face contorted as I cry misery agony

I’m so alone

What shall I do?

Suffer

I find a beat

I got nobody to hold onto

Tears falling down it’s a monsoon

Now I’m broke down here all alone

Don’t got nobody to call my home

I freestyled in my head

Part of it was dope

It doesn’t bring me any pleasure to say that

The beat can be pleasurable

I should just be out there balling

So far

Out of reach

Astronaut lost in space

My past is a mistake

it acts to replace myself

It took away my place that day

It still affects my face today

I’m sad as a bitch no face for me today

I should get my problems laced this way

I’ve been trying to make music

And been failing to get what I want

What if I’ve seen enough words in enough orders

My answer isn’t out there

And think dear

Because I need to pray more

Dear

Me

I love you buddy

I really don’t wanna be alive

I mean I really don’t wanna feel this pain

I can’t take it!

I need her

Not having what you need is sickness

Everyday is another nightmare

And I have no one to tell it to but myself

My heart is in shambles

I wanna take my life

But I just can’t every time

You’re still out there

Forever without me

So what does it matter that you’re still here?

Will I spend the rest of my life’s nights crying?

#yougottacutthatpartout

Break my heart

Pretty girls

Take my heart

I’m always abandoned even if on accident

I need another bottle