Mazz

I miss my old self, I miss how my marriage was, I miss my freedom.

My husband barely looks at me never mind touchs me. My life is consumed by work, being a mum a wife and also caring for other family.

I married a man who was my dream man in everyday, but now all the things we used to do he now finds uncomfortable and doesn't like doing them. I try my hardest to make him happy, my kid happy and everyone else happy... but I am so miserable it's eating me alive.

And I have no escape, I have tried to communicate with my husband about things but he juat says his work stresses him out and is tired from long days at work. Which I understand. He gets up goes to work and comes home to bed.

I wake up at 5am go to work, go home, be a mum, do all my house work, take my kids to nursery, go to my family member and care for them and do their house work, food, medication and provide care they need, then go get my kid from nursery go home and do the rest of the things I need to finish at home, put my kid to bed then do food for when my husband comes home and tidy up after myself, then finally at about 10pm I go to bed and maybe fall asleep by midnight.

Then up again 5am to do it all again. But I am awake twice and hour as I'm a light sleeper.

But I still try to make everyone happy and looked after ... but no one is taking care of me I do it all alone...