heavy negativity in this chili's tonight

am i being unfair? and to whom? bc i could also argue that not doing something is unfair to myself. or that my standards are too high? that i'm demanding? idk i have to look out for me i guess. it's really the only option? i cant be objective about myself and yeah i still feel immense love BUT i think i have. done enough. and dont have to feel guilty about it.

i don't think i should go back. it won't be different this time

idk how to get closure for this one specific part

well that's probably depression

"just talk to your friends about it"

gotta deep cry at some point but no time is opportune...

...

no response is a response

yeah i’m hella bitter about it

it’s really awkward i guess but honestly i need to do this anyway. move on. accept it.

ah..... goodbye then

maybe it is time to cut my losses and move on

i feel pathetic

of course i’m reaching out again bc i never learn that people just don’t care and ! better yet! aren’t interested in caring