weight loss or just being any weight I guess is really strange because the numbers are all so arbitrary. theoretically rn I am only 10 lbs overweight but I feel the same pretty much as when I was 180 lbs overweight. some things are physically easier, but it feels like this is more to do with being literally smaller/not having to struggle with physically fitting into spaces and not having to move as much weight.

I work out constantly, like 12 hours/week some weeks, and I know that I'm more fit than I was a year ago or whatever timeframe but I don't feel any better. you get sold a certain narrative that oh you'll have more energy, everything will be easier, xyz physical issues will be better or go away. and ok I do have clinically low blood pressure now instead of borderline high so that's kind of fun (?) because I get to eat as much salt as I want. otherwise my breathing and sleeping are the same, joint pain is the same or worse, I still have [random minor but annoying and gross physical issues] I've had my entire adult life.

fitting into regular size clothes is fun but I gotta stop spending money on clothes and also now I have soooooo much old clothes to deal with/try to give away or sell. and in the meantime while I don't have it too bad I definitely have visible/noticeable upper arm and thigh flab from skin not rebounding as fast as I lose fat (this is mostly fine and I'm sure will slowly look better, but people like to give really laughably bad advice about it) so I don't look as good as I want to look. and then I just get really sad that basically the medication that enabled me to lose all this weight didn't exist/wasn't accessible when I was like 18 and could have saved me a decade of being fat & miserable.