@matopoeia they're playing sharon von etten seventeen at this coffee shop and immediately prior they played motion sickness and I think it's giving me a new disorder. apocalyptic air quality and heroic quantities of concerta might be contributing.

I might have an actual addiction to online thrift shopping but in my defense I have so much mental illness. ummm at least it's not heroin I guess. honestly at this point heroin might be cheaper.

I want to go swimming outside so bad and this week it's 95F/35C every day but we got london 1952 outside. got that mexico cinema filter. got that caspar david friedrich's work post-1816 ass air.

@hieronymouscock we got that brown air now

guy with strong crackhead energy is at coffee shop loudly talking at the barista who seems to maybe be his IRL friend but also very clearly just tolerating him standing there, speak-shouting about how a cop assaulted him and the fishing gear he bought at home depot and the drainage rock situation at his apartment and other random topics/anecdotes while barista is literally taking orders from other customers. also he just lit a cigarette indoors.

anyway my recommendations to all fat weird women is join a roller derby team and also do all the lessons you wanted to do as a kid and didn't because they were too expensive or you thought you were too old (at the ripe old age of 8 LOLLLLL). start figure skating when you are 32 make friends with circus folk learn how to climb a pole and flip upside down. wear slutty outfits go to the club. You think you will feel uncool at the club but the beautiful thing is often other people there are so deeply uncool that you feel cool by comparison even if you're just like some guy.