maryssa ♡ ithk stan

It’s almost December which means it’s almost Taylor’s birthday! Which also means that I am seeing her so on at z100 jingle ball! Who else is going??

@taylorswift I went all the way to target just to hug your cardboard display, I love you so much ok bye!

I don’t think I will ever adequately be able to put enough words together to explain how much I love her. 14, 15, 16, and 17 were probably the hardest years of my life. I never felt like I belonged, I never felt like I was food enough, I never felt like had anyone in my corner. The most frustrating thing was that I didn’t understand why I felt the way that I did. I didn’t understand why I was so unhappy, so sad, and so anxious all of the time. I didn’t have the words to describe how I was feeling, but I found them in her songs. I found them in choruses and versus and hooks. She had the words that I spent so long looking for. And I wasn’t lonely, not completely. Sometimes I still feel like the 16 year old girl that I was. I feel scared, and lost, and lonely, and sad, but those feelings don’t linger long when I listen to all of the words that she’s given me. Thank you for everything, @taylorswift . I will never me able to repay you. Thank you for the last 13 years. Thank you for giving me the words I couldn’t find. Thank you for being there when absolutely no one else was. Thank you, thank you, thank you, may these memories break our fall. I love you. I can’t wait until Friday, I can’t wait to see you soon. ✨