Why Anakin Skywalker would have left much sooner if these two didn’t exists
Well more accurately if Padme didn’t exist as Obi-wan pushed it at times.
1. Anakin openly hates meditating because it hurts especially as a kid
“Anakin shook his head, caught between stubbornness and tears. “I don’t know what you want me to say.”
Mace took a shallow breath and closed his eyes. “Look inward, Anakin.”
“I don’t want to,” Anakin said breathlessly, his voice jerking. “I don’t like what I see.”
“Is it possible you see nothing more than the tensions of approaching adulthood?” Mace asked.
“No!” Anakin cried. “I see … too much, too much.”
“I burn like a sun inside!” The boy’s voice rang out in the chamber like a bell.
“Remarkable,” Mace Windu admitted. Curiously, a smile flickered on his lips. “And?”
“And I don’t know what to do with it. I want to run. It makes me reckless, so I seek sensation. I don’t blame any of you for—” He could not finish that sentence.
Obi-Wan felt the boy’s anguish like a small knife in his own gut.
2. Anakin we know was always frustrated with the jedi code and hated being the center of attention when it come to the chosen one.
“Ten years in this place, and still he was an object of interest. Of speculation. All their hopes and dreams hanging on him like decorations on a bantha skeleton at Boonta Eve. He hated it.” [Clone Wars: Wild space, Karen Miller]
3. He often felt frustrated because he felt he was being held back which we see many times.
4. Often disagreed with the council especially Yoda.
5. Had a lot of unhealed baggage not really helped by Yoda
‘… and Master, [Anakin]’s mother is dead.’ Yoda nodded, short and sharp. 'Yes. But mothers die, Obi-Wan.’ - KAREN MILLER [THE CLONE WARS: WILD SPACE]
6. Forced into helping a god damn Hutt save his kid over the hundreds of slaves that hutt owns
7. Openly being lied to often in one form or another whether it be the ghost prison or Obi-wan faking his death.
8. Obi-wan faking his death. I still personally call bs for Anakin somehow forgiving obi-wan for using his “uncontrolled emotions” to sell his death because they repeatedly lecture him on it both before and after this incident yet when it’s convenient they don’t complain
9. Ferus just Ferus Olin existing and being rude to Anakin for years
11 What happened to Ahsoka
12. Anakin dealing with constant stress and emotional guilt for him not being the best Jedi.
13. Him hating his visions and his connection to the Force causing him too much pain.
14. Anakin often needing to hide his heart
When they'd met, Anakin had been a warm-hearted nine-year-old boy with an open nature. He was twelve and a half now, and the years had changed him. He had grown to be a boy who hid his heart.
Jude Watson [Jedi Quest: The Way of the Apprentice]
15. Being not loved by any jedi outside of Obi-wan and Ahsoka
“Anakin was liked by the other students, but he had no close friends. He was not loved. Obi-Wan told himself that Anakin’s gifts naturally set him apart. But in his heart, he grieved for Anakin’s loneliness.”
Jude Watson [Jedi Quest: The Way of the Apprentice]
16 Wanting to be with Padme over the order.
17. Unknowns to him is often disrespected by other jedi behind his back with them either not trusting him, saying he is a bad influence to Ahsoka or them saying he is a shit Jedi.
I could go on but I just want to go over these reasons being the major ones.
And before anyone says Anakin should have just uh he has tried
“He looked at the ground. “Perhaps I spoke more strongly than I meant to.”
“Sometimes I don’t want to be the Chosen One,” Anakin said. The words broke free.
They felt like stones in his mouth.
“That’s not surprising,” Obi-Wan said. “Many gifts can be burdens.”
“The Force is so strong. I can feel it so much. I feel so much. I don’t want to feel so much!” Anakin hardly recognized his voice, choked and aching. Obi-Wan
looked startled at his vehemence. “Why am I chosen? Why is it me? Can’t I refuse it?
Can’t you let me refuse it? Can’t you take it away?”
“Take it from me. Please, Master.” Anakin wanted to fall to his knees. A deep tide
of feeling, of dread, had risen up within
“him and choked him. He felt tears in the
throat. Even his friend Tru was afraid for him. Just as Ferus was. Just as his own
Master was, the person who knew him the best.
What do they see that I cannot?
The sudden panic shocked him. It had sprung up so abruptly. He hadn’t meant to say
what he had said. He hadn’t even known he had been feeling it. Now it felt like the
had ever said. The dread was always there. He lived with it, but he didn’t understand
it. He just wanted it to go away.
The depth of Obi-Wan’s shock and compassion showed in his eyes, in the way he gently
placed his hands on Anakin’s shoulders. “My Padawan. I would do anything for you.
I would bear your burdens for you if I could. But I cannot.”
Anakin bowed his head. The panic and fear whirled inside him, and he was ashamed.
Obi-Wan bent closer to speak softly. He did not release his grip on Anakin’s shoulders.
“But I will help you. I will always help you. I will not leave you.”
“No, here! Exactly here.” He drew her against him again, effortlessly overpowering her halfhearted resistance. “I’m tired of the deception. Of the sneaking and the lying. We have nothing to be ashamed of! We love each other, and we are married. Just like trillions of beings across the galaxy. This is something we should shout, not whisper—”
“No, Anakin. Not like all those others. They are not Jedi. We can’t let our love force you out of the Order—”
“Force me out of the Order?” He smiled down at her fondly. “Was that a pun?”
“Anakin—” He could still make her angry without even trying. “Listen to me. We have a duty to the Republic. Both of us—but yours is now so much more important. You are the face of the Jedi, Anakin. Even after these years of war, many people still love the Jedi, and it’s mostly because they love you, do you understand that? They love the story of you. You’re like something out of a bedtime tale, the secret prince, hidden among the peasants, growing up without ever a clue of his special destiny—except for you it’s all true. Sometimes I think that the “that the only reason the people of the Republic still believe we can win the war is because you’re fighting it for them—”
“And it always comes back to politics for you,” Anakin said. His smile had gone now. “I’m barely even home, and you’re already trying to talk me into going back to the war—”
“She shook her head. “What are we going to do?”
“We’re going to be happy, that’s what we’re going to do. And we’re going to be together. All three of us.”
“No.” He laid a gentle finger on her lips, smiling down at her. “No buts. No worries. You worry too much as it is.”
“I have to,” she said, smiling through the tears in her eyes. “Because you never worry at all.”
Yet often he is either rebuffed or can’t do it because of guilt or because some people (looking at you Yoda) don’t even give him the choice
I find it funny that people say Anakin could have left any time but often times when Anakin wanted to leave or tried to leave Obi-wan and Padme basically told him not to do it because of his destiny or to help people. Its very hard to leave something when people you are close to often rebuff you or convince you not to. I could look for more but I am tired and just will wait and see how this post goes.
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