The relationship with my lover isnāt about romance or mutual passion. It is about submission, and the twisted thrill of being entirely degraded. I have realized that the more he humiliates me, the more addicted I become.
āWhen he comes to the house, he treats me like property. He doesn't care about my comfort or my well-being. If he wants to spit on my face, he does, and I take it, keeping my eyes open to show him my absolute obedience. He demands total dominance, and I give him free rein to do whatever he wants to my body, no matter how dirty or demeaning it is.
āHeās even taken it to a level where he wants to document my humiliation. Heāll order me onto my knees, face down on our carpet, forcing me to spread myself completely open for his camera. He does it just for funājust to have the photos and the memories of how easily he can break me. Those pictures are saved on my phone right now, locked away in a secure, hidden folder. My husband, of course, has never seen them. He has no idea that the phone sitting on our nightstand contains a digital gallery of his wife being utterly ruined in the home we built together.
āThe obedience doesn't stop when my lover isn't in the room, either. It rules me 24/7.
āOnce, on a morning before we had planned a midday meeting at my house, my phone buzzed. It was a text from him, demanding a picture of what belonged to him, right there and then.
āI was lying in our bed, and my husband was asleep right next to me. The risk was suffocating, but my lover's command was absolute. Without hesitating, I slowly slid the heavy duvet down. I exposed my bare breastsāthe breasts my husband believes belong only to himāand positioned the camera. I took the photo, framing it perfectly so my naked tits were in the foreground, while my sleeping husbandās face was clearly visible in the background, completely oblivious.
āI hit send. Knowing my lover was looking at my exposed body while my husband slept inches away, entirely unaware of his own humiliation, was an intoxicating rush of pure, shameless betrayal.ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøš