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i find it so funny that people will look me dead in the eye and say i dont look autistic

'but you dont stim?'

i do ??? i just wasnt diagnosed till i was 12 or 13 so i just kind of refuse to in public

'but you wear makeup?' so?? i like makeup ?literally how does me wearing makeup mean i no longer have ASD

''but you go to discos ?'' yes i do ,i go drunk and with earplugs (elite tip btw you can get the little ring ones on shein for like 2 euro and they are actually legendary )

and everyones favourite - but youre so ,,,,,,,,,normal?

snape assuming harry knows legiminancy in like first year cos he never makes eye contact but harry is just lowk autistic

dont question it i beam my autism onto characters i like

characters i beam my asd onto :

sherlock

ranpo

harry potter

hermione

tonks

sirius

himiko toga

hello kitty

everyone in the show 'rasta mouse'

the song '16 mirrors '

peter parker

tony stark

robert robertson

the girl from' needy streamer overload '

miku

kuromi from sanriyo

kiyoko from haikyuu!!

yachi from haikyuu!!

tim drake

hm.damian wayne (shows symptoms of asd due to upbringing,not disorder)

crybaby(the album by melanie martinez)

nezuko kamado(physically unable to communicate ,shows symptoms as a demon bcosidk shes relatable but maybe bos early puberty or smtj

hiccup

astrid (idk she just is )

hm: snotlout (adhd,i feel qualified ive been tested twice)

spencer reid

penelope garcia

jason gideon

percy jackson

nico d'angelo

severus snape

minerva mcgonagle (spelt it wrong ik )

does anyone else remember a tim drake as peter parker fic ?

it was a series with two reaction fics included (avengers react to peter/tim and batfam react to tim/peter) and just peters side as the main fic (maybe? i think ?)

it featured child soldier peter parker who served in the army where he met deadpool/wade wilson

i think it could have been natasha romanoff/bucky barnes and peter was their biological hydra baby or smth ,could be thinking of another fic tho

they were all written with old ish concepts that arent so popular anymore(bad family batfam ,the avengers lowk hate spiderman till like halfway through the fic

peter was also kinda homeless-like he had places he could have stayed but just kinda didnt like to despite being an unclaimed minor

i think it was hydra peter parker

things about me that are atleast vaguely attached to my autism

(happened on tt and irl ,not tumblr)

i have been in school for a little over a month since i just stopped going last november

the last two weeks i have only went in on a monday and still missed like atleast 2 classes a day

i havent went in at all this week and have yet to show up on a wednesday since joining

i have only eaten chicken noodle soup without chicken or veg and cereal(one brand,one type) for the last 6 months

the school had already called my mom complaining about my attendance

i have so much trouble paying attention and focusing that ive been tested for ADHD twice .i do not have ADHD ,thats just another part of my autism

i have had depression ,diagnosed since i was 9-10

i was called an alcoholic by my first camhs worker(11) ,current camhs worker(15) and the doctor that first referred me to camhs ;-(

i have a hoarding problem !i still have all my old artwork ,report cards , cracked ipad that doesnt work ,multiple full sketchbooks from when i was 7-8 ,posters i dont put up ,toys and dolls from when i was like 5 and every book,cd,dvd and even some tapes that i just kind of keep in my room (yes , not a good thing but if i dont laugh ill cry so suck it )

i have one friend that 1 isnt related to me and 2 has stayed my friend for more then 6 months at a time

2 if you count my cousin

i used to only speak in quotes until i was like 6 or so

much to my parents dismay the only quotes i was good for memorizing were from stupid nerdy shows,videos (httyd,fnaf,creepypasta,vocaloid type of stuff )

i was an extremely off putting child

i hated doing sports or just leaving the house in general

when we moved during covid multiple kids in my estate came up to the wall to see me because they genuinely thought i had died or gotten hospitalised

i have a genuinely really bad substance abuse problem !!

i regularly get so nervous about going to school that i genuinely make myself sick

im not good at talking to people ,like ever

even in my own house i rarely leave my room

i cant eat in front of most people ,since i was little i would eat even christmas dinners in my room or sitting on the stairs

one year for christmas instead of talking to literally anyone i just sat up stairs in my nanas house for the whole 8 hours ,my family thought id walked to my friends house down the road

i regularly forget to eat or drink for so long that i get dizzy,cant stand up ,get the shakes or lose my vision for a few seconds

i often end up ghosting my friends both online and in person

the only person to deal with that is bee ( watson)

if she doesnt hear from me for awhile and i dont answer she calls my actual parents to make sure im still like living

last november for no specific reason i can remember i tried to od

watson came over 2 days later to stay the night and called my mothers phone to talk to me while i was in the hospital

she gave out to a teacher for making me cry despite me saying i was actually fine and i just do that sometimes

peter parker that has just been bumming around new york since he was like 12 cause may and ben worked long shifts and he was a latchkey kid

one say hes just wandering and bumps into this massive guy and hes like apologizing profusely and the guy is just staring down at this scrawny little kid

like peter is tiny ,real skinny and short as fuck so he could probably pass as like 9 or 10

it just so happens that the massive ass dude is frank castle and hes just like ???? who is letting their TODDLER roam new york BY HIMSELF??

peter stops talking for one second and is just like ,,,,,hold on one sec

is that THE FUCKIN PUNISHER??? because like ,he knows this guy ,hes seen him on the news and on vigilante blogs so now hes staring at this guy aswell

franks just there expecting this kid to turn tail and run the opposite direction but peter just kinda waits there

because like to peter ? he knows this guy.knows he doesnt hurt kids -peter knows of all the back alleys in new york hes now safest in this one

harry potter who still lived with the dursleys but was always in the council estate behind privet drive and at some point basically moved in with a sweet black lady who always called him baby and her grown up kids

the dursleys HATED her so bad ,not even just because shes black but because harry got used to actually being cared about

when he was teensy he was kinda just kicked out of the dursleys house during the day because they assumed he would stay in the estate with rest of the kids but the other kids didnt like much so he endud up just wandering

i love the hc that harry didnt know his name until he went to school ,which in ireland you start school at like 5-6 depending on birth month

so this lady sees this skinny little white boy wandering around by himself and is genuinely appalled when he just goes back to her house with her

she asks his name and after a long awkward pause he just says "boy" and shes just like ".......okay baby im just not gonna call you that "

by the time he gets to school age hes still just called baby despite knowing his name as student dont talk to him because dudley beats everyones ass and the teachers are too busy dealing w the other 25 hyperactive children to bother with him

his actual name is near completely forgotten

his hogwarts letter comes and it says Baby potter nd hes just like oh shit well that must be me

hagrid breaks down the door nd hes like "where harry at ???"

harry is just sitting there like "......oh yeahhhh,,,thats me i think??"

sorting hat calls out baby potter and everyone is severely confused

i havent been doing too good recently

like back to where i started bad

ive only done too weeks of school and im not well

i think people tend to feoget im genuinely mentally ill becayse i rarel yt ake stuff seroiusly

but low and behold

im sitting in my room mildly drunk and actively oding because of fuck knows whay

last time i done this i was in the hospital for 12 houras

for literally no reaason too

it ws mostly melatonin and some radom shit i found o n the floor

in the spirit off this , here are some things about me nobody knows!! including watson

i otfen hallucoinate ,things like people bugs spiders and shit

i was was genuinely convinced i was stuvck in a game and i spent weks trying to figure ou how to get out

i once thought i was a prophet for a while which is funny because ive never been religoys

the hydra peter parker headcanon but he is so young and so sweet that nobody even considers that anything is off

like he cant remember most of that shit but sometimes he just kinda starts talking russian or latvian or something and no one thinks to question it

like hes sleepwalking or something and muttering a lullaby at like 12 and may just passes through getting ready for her night shift and all she has to say is " pet,youre russian again -get up" so he never considered that its not normal at all

in the ones where he lives part time at the tower just imagine may going over everything with stark and shes listing all the normal parent things and then like halfway through she like"oh yeah and hes russian sometimes dw abt it babes thats just how he is "

dw guys(me speaking to my walls) im back and just as much of a drunk as usual

i had to go back to school and it is not going well !!

deeply considering ending it and ive gone to maybe 2 days so far

its not even bad im just dramatic as shit and probably unstable on a good day

peter parker who just never grew again after the growth spurt that came with the bite so hes just perma 5'6 which was tall when he was like 13 but hes now 17 and still looks 14 max

harry potter who really needs new glasses but just kinda assumes everyone cant see shit and everyone else just assumes someone got him new glasses since the pair he got at like 6

spencer reid who hates eating food because he just has constant stomach issues so his stomach hurts if he doesnt eat but hurts slightly more if he does eat

hiccup who has the worst balance ever not even due to the missing foot hes just like that the missing foot only made it worse

hiccup that looks so much like valka that drunken berkiens mistake him for her and he has just given up explaining to near catatonic drunks that valka is still missing and hes just her son

peter parker but he has been a vigilante since he was like 13 and people think the reason he grows so fast and his voice changes so much is because hes a mutate and dont even consider the fact that hes just going thru puberty

peter parker but he felt bad asked for new bags so often that he just started bring plastic shopping bags

peter parker who is constantly starving because his metabolism enhanced with the rest of him but him and may are living paycheck to paycheck already

peter parker who is covered in scars because just because he heals fast doesnt mean a bullet wound wont leave a trace

peter parker who has learned how to wash blood out of clothes by age 14 because he cant keep throwing away clothes and he keeps popping his stitches

peter parker who is basically never home but it goes un-noticed because nobodys ever at home to check if hes there

peter parker who falls asleep in every theory class but still manages to keep good grades

peter parker who is 14 and seen so much bad in the world ,in his town that he cant trust people on a whim anymore

peter parker who can hear people crying from blocks away so he never gets much sleep

peter parker (tom vers.) that tells ned he goes in earlier then he actually does because he doesnt want to expose ned to the things he sees every night

peter parker who knows so many languages because not being able to communicate can end lives

peter parker whos senses are so enhanced that he suffers for it

peter parker that cant stomach placing his full trust in someone since mysterio

peter parker but Queens loves him so much that they have groups and medkits placed in hard to reach places just incase

peter parker whos entire class bar like 3 people know hes spiderman but hes protected them so much that they will never admit its him to a n y o n e

peter parker who literally part spider and since it doesnt show physically he has the instinct to make up for it so he can be literally feral sometimes and normal by the next period , everyone who genuinely doesnt know hes spiderman just thinks hes kid of weird