Nonsense Noodles

I had a call with an AI recruiter today and it was weird as fuck. It was actually really good??

So many people in my situation say they love their lives and I just dont understand. How!! What do you do!!

I don't know how to grieve the life I will never have.

I also have such exciting news but I don't want to jinx anything.

I'm in my brother's apartment to feed the cat but I'm hanging out here for the day and his apartment was absolutely disgusting. I cleaned it a little. He's probably gonna hate me for it. I wish we were closer. It's probably my fault that we aren't. I keep telling myself there's time to repair our relationship but what if there's not one day.

Back to work and my anxiety is back.

"What your really doing is equating an activated attachment system with passion." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"Protest behavior is any action that tries to reestablish contact with your partner and get their attention." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"If you are both uncomfortable with intimacy and very concerned with your partner's availability, you have a rate combination of attachment anxiety and avoidance. Only a small percentage of the population falls into this category and if you are one of them, you can benefit from information on both the anxious and avoidant attachment styles." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"Avoidant: It is very important for you to maintain your independence and self- sufficiency and you often prefer autonomy to intimate relationships. Even though you do want to be close to others, you feel uncomfortable with too much closeness and tend to keep your partner at arm's length. You don't spend much time worrying about your romantic relationships or about being rejected. You tend not to open up to your partners and they often complain that you are emotionally distant. In relationships, you are often on high alert for any signs of control or impingement on your territory by your partner." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"Anxious: You love to be very close to your romantic partner and have the capacity for great intimacy. You often fear, however, that your partner does not wish to be as close as you would like them to be. Relationships tend to consume a large part of your emotional energy. You tend to be very sensitive and small fluctuations in your partner's moods and actions, and although your senses are often accurate, you take your partner's behaviors too personally. You experience a lot of negative emotions within the relationsjip and get easily upset. As a result, you tend to act out and say things you later regret. If the other person provides a lot of security and reassurance, however, you are able to shed muvh og your preoccupation and feel contented." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"Our partner regulates blood pressure, our heart rate, our breathing, and the levels of hormones in our blood. We are no longer seperate entitites." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller

"I find that others are reluctant to get close as I would like. I often worry that my partner doesn't really love me or won't want to stay with me. I want to merge completely with another person and this desire sometimes scares people away." - Attached, Amir Levine and Rachel Heller