~Mandy Panic~

"What life it is to be a mud puddle that everyone enjoys running through and splashing, depleting, while to have the rain be the factor that replenishes you. Choose the rain."

"Isn't it disappointing and fascinating how it hurts when another doesn't love the way that you do? Disappointing that capacity was lacking, and intriguing because of how wonderful that way truly is. What a shame they won't experience it."

"It doesn't really matter, the time or memories. What matters is the effort, the proven-through-actions display of how a soul is valued. And for that, I'll never measure the value of time or memories, but the frequency of actions speaking to my soul, covering it in gold. The fortune of the heart - love."

"The path ahead of you may prove cumbersome, but if it wasn't your path then you wouldn't find your dream home at the end of it. Imagine it, the cabin in the woods, river running along the backyard, not a neighbor in sight. You in my sight leaning out onto the back porch early Saturday morning with a mug of coffee in your hands and another waiting for me. You've got this, conquer this path no matter how tough it gets."

"You've been through many battles before. Skin begotten scars tell-tale of strife. Embrace your ability to overcome turmoil, it's strengthened your resolve to cowering underneath it."

"Believe in your calling, that which pulls you to your innermost drive. The call to be your genuine self, to put hard work into which you feel is important. Feed your soul, don't resist the hunger it experiences, lest you starve it."

"Everything is changing for the better. Indulge in self-love, defend your voice, focus ahead of you, and center yourself. You're preparing yourself for the bounty the universe is bringing you, be ready for it's blessings."

"It's not meant to be forever. One thing or the other will be finite. It's okay, even the most beloved flower lives only so long. Appreciate it while it blooms."

"You're paving the way forward for yourself. It's your job to clear the way of all which stops your progression, or to find ways around that which stops you. Rocks and plants don't move when roads are built. Make the path forward what you wish of it, be it pavement or dirt, the work you put into it makes the path you take. Your work is worth it, but you have to do it to make it."

"He was all I'd ever wanted. Whatever stardust off Orion's Belt that the universe crafted me from, you'd been formed from the same. Everything about you familiar, as if my soul remembering yours from decades ago. I remember you, my soul knows yours. Hello, again."

"I create the opportunity for success to present itself by not blatantly doubting it's ability to exist. I believe I am capable, worthy, and valuable; an asset. I am open to receiving genuine opportunities for success and growth. Bring forth the abundance waiting before me."

"You can't practice grief. Every bond severed by time is valued differently. The ones with the deepest roots hurt the worst, that's why it takes a sedative to extract wisdom teeth. Losing something so ingrained in you that leaves a hole to bleed..."

"Isn't it kind of fucked up to see our darkness in others and we hate them for it? Why must we despise others who struggle with similar demons, or even demons we may not understand the traumas of? Think. You're better than this..."

"And how good it felt to finally wash away all that was eating you alive. All the rot and festering, the toxins spreading from your heart on out, and in some instances they traveled down your arms and into others you've come into contact with. How saintly, how healing! Or so you jest. So you lie and deceive. How good it felt to have fooled those around you to your cleansing, not revealing your iron grasp on the blackness oozing between your fingers as you convince it as otherwise. To be hidden pollution in plain sight. How deceitful. I see you."

"Grieving the living is sometimes more difficult than grieving the dead. Not all who have passed will haunt your waking life, but those who still breathe air may follow you into nightmares."

"It's funny. One minute you're this person, and the next you've become someone new. Changing, shedding your old skin, fitting better into the new one you've grown into. Never the same, but forever you. It's only funny when you keep them on their toes; they'll never catch up to the one you've become, fooled into believing they know you. Keep evolving. Keep growing. Keep them guessing."

"Be comfortable in your own energy. Every experience you have cannot be managed by others, so ensure the adventures you have are driven by the ambitions and self-love within you. Make the memories you cultivate for yourself incomparable, immeasurable by those who cannot match the equivalency. You can be your best company, be it for yourself."