further light and knowledge

tw for: homophobia, alcohol, drugs, depression, anxiety, self-harm, suicidal idealation, anti-religious iconography

Pronouns can be switched around as you see fit!

One More

It’s always me and you against the world

I could be like anybody else

I don’t fight fair

But, you don’t care

Spend an afternoon inside your room watching Sci-Fi

You get me high

If you give me just one more night, I could prove that there’s a God

If give me just one more try, I was liking you a lot

I know it’s crazy and insane

I think it’s weird when you’re away

It’s you I adore

So give me one more

We could be like anybody else in a parked car

I got you hot

Spend a decade letting go of shame and then we’ll talk

I gotta walk

I know it’s never too late

I was liking you

Black Light

Change is good when I touch him

I wish we would, we could start now

Is it crazy that your’e on my couch?

Everything you’re saying’s what I’m sying

I’ll go and turn the lights

I like them low at night

I could tell you what I’m thinking

I gotta tell you what I’m thinking

Pray I don’t play the way I used to

Something’s taking over me

Stay, come and be my daily ritual

We’ll break the rules like back in school

I want you under me

I want you under the black light, baby

Trouble seems to be a friend of mine

Could we keep the faith?

I really want to but I can’t see straight

I’m ready for the real

Life is so surreal

Fortune favors the brave

Things are getting weird but I like it

Please, please say I’m not insane

I want you

John, Give ‘Em Hell

I heard your voice inside my darkness

You gave me something to hold onto

Did you ever stop to notice all these voices change the world?

They got you all wrong

I wrote you this song

There’s work to be done

In the meantime, give ‘em hell

Truth is all that they want

Turth’s a one-two punch

Our lives are different, different commitments

Sins and religion, what do they mean?

Some say you’re evil

I think you’re real

I just want what’s real from this whole thing

Don’t let them think they’ve won

Devil

Sunday mornings make me nervous

They don’t feel like they used to feel

My religion feels wrong, but I can’t tell my mom

I’m afraid that my words would kill

I think I still believe in Jesus

He’s a friend when I choose to pray

My demons get my high

I’m burning all the time

They never wash my sins away

I’m singing hymns at the top of my lungs

I think they devil made me do it

I found myself when I lost my faith

Now I’m crazy

Don’t pray for me

It’s the reason that I was depressed

I could see it on their face

I did not deserve His grace

So I skipped the Holy sacrament

I swear I still believe ins omething

I couldn’t pray the gay away

So If I’m the wicked one, I’m still my _____, and you’ll never take that love away

I’m letting go, it’s not your fault

You’ll always be a work of art

I told you I’m leaving this morning

No, wait wait, don’t pick up the phone

Let it go to message, maybe you could keep it

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Waiting Around

You’re an old pro

Makes me wanna quit my day job

Man, I post too many photos

What religion?

You got me waiting around for your call

My faith is patient but it’s hitting a walll

Swear on the book you’re gonna miss me

Kiss me if we’re not gonna talk

You got me giving up on Jesus

I got words that are gonna hurt you

I’m-a go and get the hell out of town

I need you near me

I need a new clue

I want you

He will do what he do

Why did you leave me?

I’m a fool but I’m tired of being foolish

Reading up on history can mess with your head

First Vision

I see it in front of me

This is my first vision

I just tried to pay for a round of drinks on my hotel key

I’ve been depressed lately but I say that I’m happy

I swear to God, I think that death is following me

On my third glass of Malbec

He hasn’t texted me back

I fell in love with him but he’s a married man

Got these feelings I don’t think he’ll understand

I feel the blood rush in my brain when I touch his hand

We could talk for hours

_________ started saying things behind my back

Nobody wants to talk about the elephant

We’ll just ignore the problems ‘til we all forget

My further light and knowledge gave me second sight

I think I lost the spirit

Maybe it’s a sign

Let’s say I gave up God and Jesus

What do I believe in?

I used to feel and now I don’t feel it at all

I’m painting over all the paintings on my wall

My tears are dry

Finally, I feel ten feet tall

Darkness, get behind me

Midnight

Faith, please have a little in me

I know you hate it when I stray

I tried everything

I drank the wine and stained the sheets

I’m clumsy when I speak

You never call me anymore

We’re the past the point of self-control

I’m giving back to you things I thought were true

God, where the hell are you hiding?

My hands are in the air and I’m excited

I’ve been on the run

I’m not coming Sunday

It’s alright

I’ll probably talk to you at midnight

God, I could never be like you

I can’t change and I don’t want to

Fear, that’s what it was, just to be clear

You went and made everything weird

that’s another song, another night, a shot of rum

I guess what’s done is done

I fall and stumble towards the light

I’ll miss the days and nights

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Gods + Monsters

I believed in gods and monsters, too

I found out they’re all imposters, just like you

Somebody take me higher

I’m a king with no crown

I just walked around your city

It felt like a lifetime ago

We were naked in your bed, I remember what I said

I was looking at your phone

Players only love you when they’re playing

Do you remember when I called you and we both cried?

You were with your friends at the fault line

You fed me some lie about your old mind

I lost the Lord, then I lost you

Then I mixed my dignity with gin and fruit juice

I keep leaning on the window seat and angels on the buildings

You’re a song that we song to

I took a peek behind the curtainwI need more sleep, less of the dream, maybe more weed

Gates

There’s too many lights on me

Give me everything you got

I think I’m going to go get lost

I’mma kiss my love like I want to

Does anybody wanna smoke in the back room?

I used to be somebody cool that your friends knew

Gotta love him while I can like the greats do

Tell me everything is wrong, it’ll be cool

I’ll see you at the gates

Maybe we’re just gonna live forever

Maybe heaven’s a mistake

If it’s true and I lost way, then I’ll see you at the gates

I never wanted so many eyes on me

I say we stop pretending, please

There’s so many lies

Does anybody have a song we can sway to?

I’mma tell the truth like I can’t choose

We can make it through the night if we keep our cool

I think I feel pretty

Get me far away from __________

It’s you I love the most, so let’s have a toast

A tango with the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

Shameless

Your talk is cheap

You like mystery

I’ve been awake since two AM

I can barely stand another low, but the highs, I wanna do ‘em again

This ain’t love, but maybe we pretend

Rent some pornographic movie, and we both know how it ends

It’s the darkest time of the night

God and vodka might save my life

You judge, but I don’t give a damn

I live a life so shameless

Go ahead, lock me up, and throw away the key

I got more tricks up my sleeve

You’ll never get it, but you regret it

You won’t forget this when we’re done

Do you want some?

Why not take me as I am?

Why not take me now like a man?

You hate what you don’t understand

I’ve been fighting off a hurricane inside of me

I just wanna feel your body

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Sudden Death (OMG)

i never asked to fall from grace

you saw it all over my face

everybody’s saying ‘baby, you got a little crazy’

my mind’s a little hazy

catch me, i’m starting to fall

i don’t know what all this is for

keep coming at me with your disrespect

you went and started a war

now i don’t care anymore

i keep on living like it’s sudden death

i wish that you would just see me, carried away in revelry

it’s been a car crash winter

they’re calling me a sinner

things aren’t the way they used to be

G.D.M.M.L. Girls

Hey I’ve been freaking out

I can’t keep it up and I’m scared

I want to tell you, but it’s just like a cross to bear

I ride the lightning like I’m nineteen

I’m barely aware

They want to talk about my sin

They wanna say I lost my shit

I’m losing my religion

I keep on hearing evil voices

They keep on messing with my choices

God didn’t give me alternatives

God didn’t make me like girls

You see me freaking out

I’m thinking I might do something dumb

I think my father still loves his son

I tried to kill myself and I’m not the only one

God didn’t make me like you

Gay’s not a challenge that I’ll overcome

If I kiss a boy in public is that cool?

I’m not even angry anymore

Trash

I think I lost myself in your new religion

You say a prayer for me like a superstition

We were always made for love

We could always speak in tongues

On my knees and I’m seeing visions

You remind me that seven sins are deadly

Water never turns to wine

I’ve been drinking all the time

I think of you whenever I see fire int he sky

Your friends think I’m a freak

What was in my drink?

Maybe I’ll see you in hell

One man’s trash is another man’s treasure

I said my flesh is weak but the spirit’s willing

You would sell my soul just to make the killing

If you wanted me to stay, I’d repent my days away