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๐ I AM NOT WRITING THIS BECAUSE I WANT ATTENTIONโฆ
AND NOT BECAUSE I WANT SYMPATHY OR PITY.
I AM WRITING BECAUSE SOMETIMES WORDS ARE THE ONLY WAY I CAN HOLD WHAT IS LEFT INSIDE MEโฆ BEFORE IT SLIPS AWAY IN SILENCE.
๐ง๏ธ MY NAME IS DOAA.
I AM 25 YEARS OLD.
AND I AM A UNIVERSITY STUDENTโฆ TRYING TO BUILD A FUTURE WHILE CARRYING A PAST THAT DOES NOT ALWAYS FEEL HEAVY, BUT SOMETIMES FEELS UNBEARABLE.
๐ I STUDY, I TRY, I WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND PRETEND THAT EVERYTHING IS NORMALโฆ EVEN WHEN MY HEART IS NOT ALWAYS IN THE SAME PLACE AS MY LIFE.
๐๏ธ I USED TO BELIEVE THAT HOME WAS SOMETHING PERMANENT.
THAT IT MEANT SAFETY, LAUGHTER, AND A PLACE THAT WOULD ALWAYS WAIT FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT.
BUT LIFE TAUGHT ME OTHERWISE.
SOMETIMES WHAT WE CALL โHOMEโ DOES NOT STAY FOREVERโฆ
SOMETIMES IT BECOMES A MEMORY YOU CARRY INSIDE YOU WHILE YOU STAND SOMEWHERE ELSE.
๐ I AM STANDING NOW ON WHAT IS LEFT OF THAT MEMORYโฆ
ON RUINS THAT ONCE HELD EVERYTHING I KNEW.
LAUGHTER, VOICES, SIMPLE DAYS, AND MOMENTS I NEVER THOUGHT WOULD EVER END.
๐ซ๏ธ AND NOW THERE IS SILENCE.
A DIFFERENT KIND OF SILENCEโฆ ONE THAT DOES NOT JUST EXIST AROUND ME, BUT INSIDE ME TOO.
๐ญ I WONโT PRETEND IT DOESNโT HURT.
SOME DAYS IT HURTS IN WAYS I CANNOT EXPLAIN TO ANYONE.
NOT LOUDโฆ JUST DEEP.
LIKE SOMETHING MISSING THAT YOU CANNOT NAME.
๐ BUT EVEN WITH ALL OF THATโฆ I AM STILL HERE.
STILL STUDYING ๐
STILL TRYING ๐ฟ
STILL WALKING THROUGH DAYS THAT DONโT ALWAYS FEEL EASY.
BECAUSE LIFE, EVEN WHEN IT BREAKS YOU, DOES NOT ALWAYS STOP YOU COMPLETELY.
๐ SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM REBUILDING MYSELF WHILE STILL HOLDING THE PIECES OF WHAT I LOST.
TRYING TO BALANCE WHO I WASโฆ AND WHO I AM BECOMING.
๐ซ AND SLOWLYโฆ I AM LEARNING SOMETHING IMPORTANT.
I AM NOT ONLY WHAT WAS TAKEN FROM ME.
I AM ALSO WHAT REMAINS WITHIN ME.
MEMORIES ๐ธ STILL LIVE INSIDE ME
STRENGTH ๐ช IS STILL GROWING IN SILENCE
AND A HEART โค๏ธ THAT HAS BEEN THROUGH A LOTโฆ STILL REFUSES TO STOP BEATING
๐ MAYBE LIFE DOES NOT ALWAYS RETURN WHAT IT TAKES.
MAYBE IT DOES NOT REBUILD THE SAME WALLS OR THE SAME DAYS.
BUT IT GIVES SOMETHING ELSEโฆ
THE ABILITY TO CONTINUE ๐
THE ABILITY TO FIND MEANING IN SURVIVING ๐ฟ
THE ABILITY TO KEEP GOING EVEN WHEN EVERYTHING FEELS DIFFERENT
๐ I DONโT KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDSโฆ
BUT I KNOW THAT I AM STILL HERE.
๐ We lost our home, and with it, our safety, comfort, and every sense of a normal life.
AND THAT ALONEโฆ IS SOMETHING.
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