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Day 0 Arrived at CSULA, checked into dorms, was confused with how to get there, not happy with outlet placement, long distance between cars and towers, high security. Arrived at LACC, ate lunch, worked with team to practice and set up show. Realized that the AV set up could not accommodate a USB-C input. Purchased pins and a pajama set from the AX Merch Booth. Later perused Artists’ Alley and…

When I applied for graduate school, California State University, Northridge (CSUN) was the first school to accept me. They sent the acceptance letter at the end of January, much earlier than other schools. Their Masters in ECE program was much more affordable than the others I applied to, and I would have the option to commute from my parents’ house if I wanted. My mom wanted me to save money,…

Here is an absolute ramble of what I did this past year when I was 26 years old. Continue reading What I Did When I Was 26 Years Old

Hi Chat, It’s been a few months. Things have been more or less happy, albeit stressful. My job is very difficult now, and I’m being micromanaged by the new manager. To be honest, things are getting worse at work, and the environment is very tense. It is difficult to be productive when I have people breathing down my neck, and truthfully, I just want to do a good job. I will be starting grad…

My period was irregular for almost all of 2023. From the end of January to the end of June, I didn’t bleed even once. After seeing a gynecologist, getting a blood test, and having a pelvic ultrasound, I was diagnosed with PCOS. For me, the criteria I meet for this diagnosis are irregular periods and high testosterone levels. My ovaries appeared normal. I have increased acne on my neck and jaw…

I was asked to speak at a mental health rally after speaking there back in 2022. I put together a speech about my journey with my mental health and the things I have done in the past two years. The speech went fantastic, and someone told me that I seemed like a natural public speaker. I am absolutely proud to share an edited version here! Continue reading Mental Health Speech 2024

Spring breaks through the air. The distinct smell of the yellow flowers blossoming on the trees reminds me that growth is inevitable. The aroma permeates my room through an open window that I crack open as the weather warms. If I step outside at night, I am rewarded with a stronger whiff of the sweet aroma,a reminder to appreciate nature outside of my room and work. Pollen shocks my senses, as…

(I wrote almost everything below prior to the pageant, but I didn’t have the chance to finish it.) This Sunday, I will be participating in the Miss Los Angeles Chinatown Pageant. Normally, I would not think of myself as someone eligible for a pageant, but I felt like giving it a chance after finding the application. At this point, I am nervous and scared, but I am also excited and curious.…

It has been a few months since I last posted here. I was busy writing documents for grad school applications. Then I got hooked on Yakuza, which led me to ogling over Goro Majima. The holidays came around, and I applied for the Miss Los Angeles Chinatown pageant (where I am now a contestant at the time of writing this). I also made a lot of progress on the dress I am sewing (not related to the…

I create opportunities. I bring people together. I am recognizing when people are not a good fit for me. I am introspective. I exercise compassion. I help guide others. I struggle, then I make things easier for those who come after me. I am a leader. I am determined. My therapist has reiterated that while I am single, I need to focus on myself. Who is Maizy? Who is she when she is not…

Since May, I have been feeling better about my breakup, and being the horny motherfucker I am, I sought out a partner for a FWB relationship. While a handful of men appreciated that I was upfront with my desires, some of them unmatched after I shared my boundaries (understandable), and one of them no longer interested me after we met in person. During AX, I matched with a few different men on…

TW: Suicide.Spoilers: Cyberpunk 2077 endings. I normally write my posts ahead of time and queue them so that my thoughts are spaced out rather than published all at once. I write this on the morning of August 20, 2023 (around 2:30 AM). In the Cyberpunk universe, the nuclear assault on Arasaka Tower is happening right now, which is also known as the Night City Holocaust. Although, as a Jewish…

Last year, I took a train ride down to Tustin to retrieve my mattress from my storage unit. On the way there, I bumped into someone dressed as Fugo. Turned out, they were going to Anime Expo (AX). This year, I decided I wanted to go. In February or March, I applied to volunteer for AX and I was accepted. I have even noticed a few tidbits in my writing, including a blog post from 2018, where I…

On August 4, I went to see Sullivan King for my first rave. To be fair, I’ve been to a couple other late night music events before, including Electric Feels, Wasted Beach Haus, Low Steppa at The Avalon, Darude at the Avalon, and a handful of events at XS at Encore and Intrigue (now closed) at Wynn. However, I don’t think any of these were truly raves because they didn’t meet the vibe expectations…

If you’ve been reading my posts for the past 6 months, or even the past few years, you know that it’s no secret I have only one thing on my mind, and it’s disgusting. I’m kidding, it isn’t disgusting, but having a high sex drive has gotten me into difficult situations. Whether I was a university student afraid of commitment or a newly single woman (also afraid of commitment), I’ve tried to keep…

If I could not leave my exes, then I would have to submit myself to so many things I don’t want to do. I’m grateful I have the ability to leave, and the same for my exes. I hope that for my 2nd and 3rd exes, I am the worst lay they will ever have. For their benefit, I hope it only gets better (or got better) after me. For one ex, I hope they are enjoy the company of someone who fully loves them.…