Like A Turtle Don't

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Literally all I want in life is a friend. That sounds really pathetic and gross but it’s true. I want a best friend. Someone who actually wants to go out and do things with me. Someone who actually tries to understand me and wants to experience life with me. I want to be friends with someone, and not feel like the second option. I don’t want to be alone in my life anymore. I’ve only had like, 3 irl friends and they have either lost interest, treated me terribly or are just really terrible people. My current “friend” is a really awful person who hates everyone and cusses all the time and refuses to respect or listen to anyone. I literally only talk to her because I don’t want to sit alone at lunch and people mess with me less. My cousin is really spoiled. It’s not good. And she usually wants to hang out with her other friends. I have an Internet friend. But really all we can do is talk. And lately it kinda seems like we just talk about me. I don’t want to do that, and you know who you are so if you feel like that’s all we talk about, I’m sorry. I just…I don’t know. I’m tired of being the rejected, outcast, loser of the school. And that’s what I am. Completely. I don’t even try anymore, I really don’t. I go to school wearing the ugliest clothes I have. I have like literally two pairs of jeans to my name that I can wear without wanting to throw up. I wear baggy, gross, gray everything. I look disgusting all the time that’s why I have no friends. But I don’t really have any clothes I like. And it’s bad. Really bad. If I’m wearing clothes I don’t look/feel comfortable in it will ruin my day. I won’t eat, I’ll feel sick, I won’t talk to people… And I just can’t do it. My mom doesn’t realize though she’s just like “you look fine” but I don’t feel fine when I wear clothes I don’t like I feel sick, disgusting, gross, awkward, stupid…it’s ruining my life. I need professional help but we’re poor and we can’t get any. Basically I’m screwed. Yay.

These photos are just a sampling of the cool stuff in the exhibit, so if you’re in the Indiana area make sure to check it out!

young god / halsey

haunting // halsey

Halsey - Strange Love

Halsey // Ghost

Wee snaw

Coming Down // Halsey