we do (broken) bones motherfucker

Back when I worked at the hospital, I had to take MRI training and it was my favorite thing every time. It was only like 10 minutes long and went a little something like this:

Hey. The MRI is basically a really big magnet and by basically I mean it is and we literally never turn it off. It's like really big. Really really big and powerful and The Magnet is always on. We don't turn it off Ever, for any reason. We mean it bro, The Magnet is literally always on. It's crazy strong and will definitely kill you. So don't bring any metal into the MRI room, man. You will fuck up the machine (because The Magnet is always on) and then you will die (again, because The Magnet is always on). Here's some fun questions for you to test your understanding!

1) The ______ is always on.

2) The Magnet is ______ on.

3) How often is The Magnet on?

4) The Magnet is always __.

5) The Magnet is always on. T/F

6) The Magnet is usually on but we know to turn it off for you because you're a very special boy :) T/F

7) My weak fleshy body can survive the wrath of The Magnet. T/F

8) Look at this 500 lbs steel hospital bed, which The Magnet has crumpled into an origami crane. Imagine if that was you.

9) Is The Magnet ever off?

10) Sometimes we turn The Magnet off. T/F

Thank you for taking MRI training. We hope you learned that The Magnet is always on, because it is. It's on Right Now and it will be on every time you come to the MRI. Have fun and remember: The Magnet is always on!

Then maybe...

Maybe...

like i wish i died just so i wouldn't have to have watched my mother refuse to go to therapy to learn how to support me

like she claimed over and over that she wanted to help but when i begged her to go to therapy because of everything we have been through and were going thru. and she still refused like fuck whats is wrong with you

like she drugged me as a child and took away my entire fucking life.

i wish i died because most of my friends stopped talking to me within a year of becoming disabled in a suicide attempt

i wish i died because i literally cannot afford to live in my home state because i am disabled

i wish i died because my mom let her husband abuse me and my disabled family members

i wish i died because i am in so much fucking pain and i begged them not to touch me. i wish i died because i literally should not have survived. like every single doctor i talk to is shocked speechless that im alive.

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