alright okay alright okay alright I am now home from work and I am beaminggggg
so yes yes yes laika/phoebe being nonbinary, having a very androgynous voice and foxes aren't exactly known for being especially gender dimorphic, and people assume they're a girl because grace is a boy (or is he) and because of their name, but they're not, they never have been, they never will be, ryland tried explaining that to his parents when he was younger and it never stuck so he just... stopped trying. same with his lack of interest in romance, in dating, in one night stands. even if people still give him Looks when he specifically refers to his daemon as a "them", and when he laughs off questions about his love life. he, and laika/phoebe, have learned to ignore it. (aroace ryland grace my beloved)
now. speaking on the name, I love both. I really love both. I love the idea of laika being their first name, the name grace's parents' daemons gave them the way his parents named him ryland, and it becoming a self fulfilling prophecy. ryland, for the place he is leaving, grace, for the ship he's leaving in, and laika, for the journey itself. and I love the idea of phoebe being the name that comes from his memory loss. quite literally nothing to base it on whatsoever, he just woke up in this ship lightyears from home with a fox in his "sleeping bag" that he almost crushed when he rolled off the bed and who is now the only other living being on this ship, this living being who feels like an extension of himself, he may not know who he is or who this fox is but his brain Knows they're his, his, the same way he knows they're a them and not a her or a him, so instead of referring to them as just "you" or "fox" or what have you, especially after he remembered His name and not theirs, they decide on a name together. (and then they Do remember, later. laika. laika, the patron saint of one way trips. laika, the canine sent into space to die. oh, does grace have a breakdown about that!)
now. let us discuss The Fic. Laika (Tamed Dogs Still Bite) (banger, everyone read this immediately, where I got the two names idea) reminded me that daemons can unsettle when their humans undergo extremely traumatic experiences. and tbh I think that fits this situation fucking perfectly, I really do think ryland's daemon would not be the same as grace's. I think one daemon existed before the hail mary and one existed after. however, I am extremely attached to him having a fox, so what I am Actually suggesting is that instead of a wholesale unsettling, it would be an Almost unsettling. a Not Quite unsettling. instead of a fully-orange red fox like laika, I'm picturing that phoebe would be dappled. still, mostly, orange, red, but with spots of white and light brown that make them look piebald. they would not be mostly white - but they would not be mostly red, either. they would still be a red fox, not an arctic fox, but you wouldn't know that, looking at them. and that lack of knowing is the thing that hurts. the first time grace saw them he didn't recognize them, and it wasn't because of his memory, it was something in him, that felt stranger, before his heart skipped a beat and he realized. phoebe no longer feels wrong, but the hurt lingers. they both feel it. changed. irrevocably.
now. about rocky/adrian. yes yes yes one hundred percent god would rocky feel guilty about having this other living thing with him when the ship breaks down. he would feel so guilty about it, and guilty about being selfishly glad that he's not alone anymore, and only be mildly assuaged at the fact that this other living being, apollo grace named him, is a part of him and knows how he feels and feels pretty much exactly the same. two sides of the same coin. bickering constantly I cannot stress enough that one of the reasons apollo fits as a name so well is because he and rocky were rivals in the movie and that is what his new daemon feels like! (sometimes. rocky is often too pleased to no longer be alone to really feel That much annoyance. grace always laughs that its what rocky gets, being so snarky and sarcastic and so much of a "diva".) And Literally!!! they can watch each other sleep!!!
its no wonder adrian is curious when they finally reach erid. grace having his own weird human thing? sure. he's an alien. adrian's mate now having this weird human thing after being present in grace's so so poisonous atmosphere? ...well. rocky went through plenty of his own medical check ups Beyond the whole "being in space for five decades" thing because of it, but adrian was curious. they're not even the only curious eridian! ...but they Are the one closest to the human aside from rocky. so they have the best chance of testing this out.
and then their daemon is different from rocky's. I'm picturing rocky's being a fairly small also stone-like tick looking sort of thing that can cling to rocky like a magnet. not a parasite, but maybe something eridians consider pets the way humans consider reptiles? small enough to not be a hazard to rocky's ball or tunnels on the ship, before they get back to erid. and yes, he is a he, the way laika/phoebe is a them. rocky has to make up a new word just for him. adrian's, I'm not so sure. bigger than rocky's, the way adrian is bigger than rocky (I picture adrian as like a foot taller and completely teal/turquoise blue btw), but maybe the size of a cat? something that can roll itself into its own ball, maybe much more metallic than rocky's, isopod-like. if eridians look like that their animals have to be just as hardened, I assume.
I'm also imagining adrian names them mary. after the ship that brought their mate home. grace pouts about the loss of another rocky pun but can't mind too much, because adrian has a daemon now. adrian, rocky's mate, has a daemon. on purpose. on purpose they burned the shit out of their hand to get a daemon. and it worked.
and as far as dust "infecting" erid... I'm of two minds. I would fucking love it, personally, and I don't think the eridians would mind Too much, but I know some of them probably would, having a much more vulnerable part of themselves outside of their very tough body, and also, who Knows how dust itself can travel in the eridian atmosphere. maybe it just slams into the ground with force the way grace and laika/phoebe would if they were outside their enclosure. 29 atmospheres worth of ammonia! I would well and truly love it, but with only two eridians currently possessing daemons who knows how it would spread. grace would very much not want anyone else hurting themselves in his atmosphere just to try and get a daemon, thank you very much. (as much as some of the scientists would want to. have tried to. do not poison yourselves with oxygen oh my god-)