The Great Lover

Man this love shit sucks. Why did he bother me and stir up my life for nothing just to leave. Im randomly crying every few hours and i havent done anything ofher than mope in my bed

It’s over with Jason I’m so sad i dont want to ever date again if this bullshit hurts so bad

I’m sure so many people think I’m an angry person but I’m just extremely sad and hurt

This Christmas season has been such a terrible one. I hate having separated parents who hate each other. I hate having a parent with BPD. My love life is so weird.

Why does the Lord create so much pain? Why was I chosen to endure this? This feels like torture. My mom is so ill. Why do other people get to live such happy lives and are so blessed and get to live with a faultless mentality? Why was i made to suffer

Why did God do this to me

Why did God give me so many obstacles? My heart is so weak. I just want to rest

Unfortunately i might take this sadness with me in my chest wherever i go

I feel like a part of me lives and breathes in Saigon, Madrid, Berlin, CDMX, and Paris

I travel the world alone not for the shared experience with friends but for the love of the game

I hate the days how the pain changes and wanes but it doesnt disappear

I love my whole heart

I look around at my life and i feel like shit. I’ve gotten everything I wanted except I cant eve seem to find someone to truly love and love me kindly

Did he have more faith in You than me thag my life become so sad and his became my dream?