been thinking a lot about anticipatory grief lately. i love you so much that i know losing you will devastate me. i haven't lost you yet but i already miss you. we still have time, but it won't be enough. i think about what i would say at your funeral, and say some of it to you now cause i need you to know how loved you are before you go. you will go where i cannot follow, but you will never really leave me. it won't make it hurt less but it is a part of healing somehow.

I literally overanalyze every single thing that happens in my life then wonder why I’m overstimulated & have no energy for anything else

the whole point of life is being deeply moved by art. and bread

i pray that aug, sep, oct, nov and dec are all months full of growth, blessings, productivity, new doors open and opportunities

I come from a long line of people with something wrong with them

crazy how much ppl do not care that you are literally losing your mind if you are a quiet woman who doesn’t inconvenience others much