fist my bump

like i’m just so depressed every weekend. and frustrated. and if i’m depressed and frustrated i can’t even imagine how he must be feeling knowing that this entire season could end up a waste. (he has millions more dollars to comfort himself with but still, it’s his life and career, not mine)

it’s so hard for me to put any energy into getting excited about a race weekend when every weekend is the same disappointment. and then i feel guilty about not being excited bc i know that there are people who are fans of drivers whose careers have been in the midfield and i might sound whiny now that my driver is in the midfield but like. this is worse than just being in the midfield. this is like. aston martin levels of wasting my time when i know that my driver can podium and win races if he just has the fucking car, and it’s Exhausting. like i’m still here for carlos but also holy shit will i ever enjoy a race weekend again.

ANYWAY this is getting long and mopey so that’s enough from me but tl;dr: am sad. am tired. am angry. am feeling so petty about certain things that i have to keep not posting stuff that might piss people off bc in the end it’s just never worth it.

at this point i’m wondering if i should just be like hey see you in 2027 everybody