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The concept of counter balancing forces were often quite abstract for me to understand. They say to conserve energy, or momentum there are often counter balancing elements. From mechanical physics to electronic, from counter balancing torque, towards normal force to counter gravity, to eddy current which opposes the magnetic field it created.

Life has already given so many examples that it would be in vain to not consider it aligned with human emotions. 

Our behavior and response to events are always predicted by our mindset and our experiences. Those who claim to be responsive and not reactive often had the time to think before decisions or might as well have train themselves in such a way. Understanding the responses and patterns, it is not only important to observe their thought process but also the actions that are derived from it.

The only counter balancing emotion which often disturbs is the push and pull of the same person, we train our mind to be used to a person for so long, and then in an instant we no longer have the same emotions. The pull of keeping this person and the childish urge to get everyone back together is often counter balanced with maturity which understands reality. We cannot really keep someone with us just because we want it, It always have been mutual and forever has to be. Not sure whether maturity is what hinders most human relations or is it really childish to fight for the ones we desire.

Two might have the same emotion of hunger, but one might try to resist it for some cause and one might give in . In the world of gray, it is individuals perception which make one black and white. We often are biased with our though process which leads to alienation from others point of view. We often hold back or provide information we deem is necessary for our thought process. Our thoughts are always balancing each other, who is always working might have thoughts of taking rest as well as finishing the work which is in progress. 

I am a dilemma, so insisted on the thought of "I possess no existence, I forfeit my right to choose or to be chosen" that I am scared to let go because I want it as well as scared of being alone when learnt about.

This dilemma, I cannot blame, but in search of belonging created a lot of pain. masked individuals are difficult to understand, and requires time. But patience seems enemy to the youth, and mistakes happen. Loosing a long term precious investment, for a high stake bid.

Truly said, Be greedy when others are fearful, and be fearful when others are greedy.

I do lack awareness and every criticism hurts me, It is I who cannot understand himself, and lost within. I am tired of being someone I have no clue about, Questions like why to study, why to work feels okey when you have a job in hand, Seems like struggling with success. But in the war between mind and heart bleeds the grounds of personalities, as if I am fighting myself to be and not be there.  

Existence is difficult for those who cannot let go, I let go everything I should not have. My mind, my strength ,my belief, my ego. Walk away when disrespected, I learned, but a stray I became.

Those not served in silver spoon, learn to lick off the edges of a knife.