Mad Dame

How to choose!? 1, 2 or 3? 🐝 My ideal Style of portrait that was actually SO simple after fluffing around with chaotic energy for hours, all it took was lying still with quality props, natural light and basic elegant make up, to create an outer worldly stunning image. Ft @ivori.soul a talented singer songwriter 🎶 Make up 💄 & Photo 📸 and editing by me @jessica.illichmann //@maddame__ https://www.instagram.com/p/B_9aSJ1D68D/?igshid=35dp56hngb4t

WHAT IF - hear me out - WHAT IF 10 minutes, 1 hour, of ‘WALKING THROUGH THE FIRE’ 🔥of my greatest illusion-story that’s pinning me down, is a solution to breaking away all those timelines that have lead me to a dead end wall, as far as that OLD SELF wants get to? 10 mins!? Of what I feel is ACKNOWLEDGEMENT is the healing, EXPRESSION is the healing, TRANSFORMING ENERGY from the body is the healing. • I know I may build up illusion walls that if I ‘WALK THROUGH THE FIRE’ my whole world as I knows it falls apart - well essentially it does - the old world, low and behold, welcome to NEW WORLD. I always felt like, if I walked through (the valley of the shadow of death) that I would fall even further into DARKNESS. I thought there needed to be a GIANT GIANT SHIFT SOOOOO BIG the world would freak out by hearing it… I thought my whole body would CONVULSE AND FOAM AT THE MOUTH from voicing my ENERGY, from voicing MY STORIES. • It was like a tiny switch, that was like okay, we are just going to start a NEW TIMELINE from THIS moment and go up here now… NOT GO THROUGH A PORTAL LIKE ON STARGATE, not feel like I fell from the sky, or ELECRITICTY took over my body like an exorcism… no no, because I have ALREADY felt all that, in ALL OF THE TIMES I FELT EMOTIONAL PAIN BUT DID NOT SIT WITH IT. I had allllll those BIG SCARY FEELINGS and BODILY FEELINGS when I REFUSED TO FACE MY VOICE, OR LISTEN TO MY OWN VOICE. • AND now the walking on coals, voicing adventure I have COMMITTED to walking myself through in this very short week, THE HEALING and ACKNOWLEDGEMENT was gentle, loving, freeing and SACRED as fuck. The EMOTIONAL PAIN held in my body turned to PLAY, the PLAY turned to FREEDOM, the PLAY turned into TOOL. THE PLAY TURNED INTO PERSONAL POWER. THE PERSONAL POWER TURNED INTO CHANNELLING. • “ALL THIS TIME” she whispers through me, “I JUST WANTED TO BE HEARD. I WANTED YOU TO HEAR ME.” “HERE I AM.” She calls, VIBRATING through my diaphragm, the vibratION CLEARING and shooting through my heart and throat - which was always so closed, and out of my little head. LITTLE WOMAN, BIG VOICE. • • 📷 Photography by @socialconspiracy_ https://www.instagram.com/p/B_mPJulD6TN/?igshid=1t9jgvl54u3tu

✨🚌 Just a little something I worked on today for myself. ✨Remembering that my world is a FREE world. I am not fueled or dictated by the choices or opinions of others. I’ve broken through that circle again and again and again. I’m not 16 anymore. The opinion of others is what’s on repeat again and again and again. (Do they even know where the concept of their opinions come from in the first place?) So when I think for myself, I create for myself and when I create for myself, I am then free. ✨✌🏻glitter from @getdamed #vanlife #glittervan #glitter #findyourownvoice #leavemealone #findsomethingthatmatters #notheretobeliked #freedom #creativeexpression #gold #whatever #boourns #sparklesparkle #itsjustglitter #pva (at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia)

✨🔥☄️💫 Do not forget. 🌏⛰🌻 (at Kanangra)

🖤Digital self portrait @maddame__ ❤️ I also used to be an award winning digital Illustrator when I was a teenager! 2004 (I was 18, in year 12) HA! This is what I spent my school classes doing instead of boring shit (ps. I remember nothing I was taught in those high school years) & I was not conditioned. Nothing’s changed. The system didn’t break me. 🖤#digitalart #deviantart #vectorart #digitalillustration #adobeillustrator

OOOO. Way OLD archives to 2003/4. 35mm film self portraits. @maddame__ 💙💖

🖤Baby Dame🖤 2011. 📷Self Portrait. -All the selves are past and gone. - #maddameislittle #inkedgirls #girlswithtattoos

💙Baby Goo Dame 💙 Oakland, CA 2010. #maddameislittle #suicidegirls #inkedgirls #bluegoo #goo #turquoise

🌑Black moon Aphiony. Here I share the last paragraph of tonight’s journal. ⚡️You need to be energy. You need to be creative. You are Creator, you are your own god. . You’re feeling pain of existence because you’re not being true to yourself, you’re not acknowledging… a very powerful thing, that we are going to keep between just you and me. It doesn’t need to be shared. It’s yours and only you will understand it. You can channel it, through your creations, a little snippet without giving it away, to the world. To taste and feel something they aren’t quite sure of, but love it. They will want more, but you need to hold the barriers. . How many and much of you is there you are willing to share, to sell out, to give away. You have the power, of the boundaries of your energy. Through all things. Choose now to give and take to where it fits best. Say yes, say no, walk away, walk towards. . 🌟It’s your life Alchemy.🌟 . 📷Self Portrait @maddame__ #maddamelife #goddessgirlgang #disappear #forest #earthcreatures #aliengoddess #SHAKTIMATA 👑 (at Mount Glorious)

🖤❄️Dark ICE QUEEN❄️🖤 with @Shivjam Make up: @nique.mua Featuring @getdamed NEW Ice Queen Bio Glitter. 📷: @Maddame__ . . I’ve put my Online Glitter store back online while I travel around. 🤷🏼‍♀️If you enjoy my art, please buy a glitter, or Gypsy Soil Scrub for yourself or a friend and you’ll be supporting my ability to keep creating better and natural products as I go. This is the beginning on a new cycle where I left EVERYTHING I OWN BEHIND! I have nothing much besides confusion and darkness, with an unused lingering talent. Much like this Dark Ice Queen. . ✨Shop Glitter: damedglitter.com ✨ . Use my 10% discount code:RAINBOWS 🌈 . #maddame #maddamestudio #getdamed #glitter #bodyglitter #cosmeticglitter #ecwid #plantbasedglitter #plantbasedcosmetics #bio #sparkle #glitter #bioglitter #vegan #ethicalcosmetics #kryolan #kryolanaustralia #icequeen #darkicequeen (at Brisbane, Queensland, Australia)

☀️1/2. It’s Monday. My life is changing. I left Melbourne one month ago for a spontaneous adventure as always, but this time, I didn’t turn back. I have left so many loose ends open in the controlled chaos of my perfective tendency, and I’m still just turning the other cheek in acceptance that: Things don’t need be certain way. The visions and creations will happen the way they happen, they don’t have to have X,Y,Z until they can become. . I felt like my van had to be all done up before I can continue into a deeper venture. But theres no rush, it’s comfy and cute and works the way it is, as I open and introduce this new lifestyle. My studio doesn’t have to be clean and empty yet, or at all, if I’m ready to say goodbye. It’ll still be there, waiting for when I’m ready to close it. There’s no rush. I don’t need to go to Melbourne, back to some old familar work habits, just to make money, to come back to this point, to follow my true calling and feelings. I’m following love. I’m not walking away to go make things a certain way to be able to enjoy it in a way that I predetermine. I’m just jumping in, fully clothed, with what I got and being okay with drying off and continuing on... 📷Self Portrait @maddame__ (at Putty Beach)

In hyper colour... ‘coz I’m feeling extreme. 🌑 The combination of the black moon, end cycle of this watery lunar pull, in sync with the monthly shred of my womb walls... begins to create emotional darkness that pulls the chemicals in my heart. I start to feel pain replace love today as all these elements influence my natural flow. Releasing water as tears like rising tides. 🌊💧 Patience today will become impossible as I feel wrong holding time away from you as I count down the sunsets until I get to share it with you again. I try try try to be patient. To allow space to indulge in your own pursuits. But today it’s starting to hurt. I’m not ashamed to surrender and confess. Tomorrow after a lonely sorrow sleep, is another day, but as the evening nears a dark unlit sky, by only star shadows, will keep me up all night wailing in my own accountable misery. 📷@maddame__ (at Sydney, Australia)

Wake up next to the beach & indulge into the sunrise for the first day of the rest of your life. & buy me breakfast. Realities are attainable. You just need to ask. #maddamelife #maddameislittle (at Catherine Hill Bay, New South Wales)

I have too much to say right now so I’ll start by sharing Yes be beautiful in your shell, take nice photos but giggle the fuck out yo. Making silly faces and embrace where your happy wrinkles are going to form because it’s inevitable. Love a life of happiness over vanity. I feel loved and know love for this character I am and I have and will NEVER EVER let perfect imperfections rule my ability to be loved. My heart flutters. 📷@katness._.e /@bethanymassey (at Newcastle, New South Wales)