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Feelings

The truth is, for so long, I'd forgotten what those even were.

I've been stuck in one place, in a cave, you might say.

A deep, dark cave.

And then, I left some Eggos out in the woods, and you came into my life and for the first time in a long time, I started to feel things again.

I started to feel happy.

But lately, I guess I've been feeling distant from you.

Like you're pulling away from me or something.

I miss playing board games every night, makin triple-decker Eggo extravaganzas at sunrise, watching westerns together before we doze off.

But I know you're gettin older.

Growing.

Changing.

And I guess... if I'm being really honest, that's what scares me.

I don't want things to change.

So, I think maybe that's why I came in here, to try to maybe... stop that change.

To turn back the clock.

To make things go back to how they were.

But I know that's naive.

It's just... not how life works.

It's moving. Always moving, whether you like it or not.

And, yeah, sometimes it's painful.

Sometimes it's sad.

And sometimes... it's surprising. Happy.

So, you know what? Keep on growing up, kid.

Don't let me stop you.

Make mistakes, learn from them, and when life hurts you, because it will, remember the hurt. The hurt is good. It means you're out of that cave.