I don't think I've stated this much, but recently I learned that I got something that will kill me in 10 years and I've been handling it poorly.
If you have noticed the down tick in art and hell, even my grammar being poor- it's literally because I feel like hot garbage all the time now.
I halted all my projects in the beginning of January 2026, as of March 2026, I got news that it's slowly resolving without too much interference but... idk I almost died in 2025, that took 20 years to find.
10 years might seem like a lot to others but to me it's a very short timescale.
I'm conflicted on posting this. Though, I would rather try to express it then to continue to repress it.
I'll keep fighting to stay alive but jic I just... go quiet and never come back... Stay alive. Please. Stay alive for me.
Trust me you will find a place for yourself. You just have to stay alive.