FRE$H 2 DEATH

It’s been a minute. My mom is officially cancer free! Her hair is slowly growing back and she feels pretty good other than she gets tired more easily. Then my dog got diagnosed with an intrahepatic shunt and hepatic encephalopathy 🫠 I’ve sunk a loooooot of money into that lil guy but now I make his food at home so he gets a liver friendly diet and he seems to be doing a lot better. I’m in my 11th year of teaching and holy shit has this year been challenging. Kids are just very apathetic about everything. Don’t care about rewards or consequences. It’s been extra exhausting on top of taking on more responsibilities at work and being in my first trimester of pregnancy. That’s the biggest news! I had been thinking about it for awhile. I got the news that I am BRCA-2 positive which means I am much more likely to get breast cancer, and that I need to get my ovaries out at 35 (I turn 35 in 4 days 🫠). Along with my mom battling cancer, this made me decide to have a kid on my own. I can’t wait for a life partner to come around, and I want my parents to get to be grandparents to my child as they are getting older. About a year ago I started going to a fertility clinic, and I’m about 7.5 weeks, so still very early. I’ve been struggling hard with nausea and exhaustion. Fingers crossed things go well with the pregnancy!

I finally meet a guy I’m interested in and he’s 10 years younger than me 🫠

I was telling my FWB how my bank account got hacked and he offered to give me money and I dunno how I feel about it lmaooooo

I guess it’s about that time for a life update. I’ve had a traumatizing year. Before the school year even started, my professor killed himself because he got caught having an affair with a high school student that he taught. Then in September I caught Covid and hurt my back breaking up a fight, so I had to spend a month in physical therapy. In the winter a 6th grade student killed himself, and then a few months later one of my former students was murdered in a drive by shooting at school. I went to his visitation, hugged his brother who was also a former student of mine, and hugged his mother. The image of him in the casket still haunts me. My physical and mental health really suffered this year. My grandma has also been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s so that’s been tough. I’m still going to therapy and that’s been really helpful for me. I resigned from the district after 7 years which has left me with a lot of mixed emotions, but after a loooooong search and many rejections, I was offered a position in another district. I bought a new car last week so that’s another piece of good news in my life. So I’m looking forward to enjoying another year in my house, my new car, pug snuggles and a new job! I hope I will find more happiness and healing. And I can’t wait to tell my therapist all this next week, lol.

I graduated and got my Master’s this weekend!! :)

The professor I had a crush on fucking died today and I am absolutely devastated

I just figured out Jujutsu Kaisen is on HBO Max so that’s all I’ve been watching for 2 days 🙃