Pura Vida since 04.2015

Info 31.01.2024

I cannot say when or what i will finish when. My private life with baby, work and so on leaves me not much time for writing and even being on tumblr. I am very sorry. I won't promise anything i cannot 100% stick to. But thank you for all your love. <3

Update 28.04.2024: I DO NO REQUEST OR WRITING

well at least at the moment. i still try to figure out being a mom, and work and finding my own happiness in myself. Do I want to finish my open fanfictions? Hell yes, not only because of you but it is also a good feeling to finish projects. But my priorities are diffrent right now.

I am sorry <3

Writing:

Fanfiction

My dreams:

Ghost and Thievs

Others:

Art-Stuff

Jewlery & more Selfmade -> Shop

Deep Stuff / Therapy

Note:

I already had 2 other dreams with him.

In the first i cuddeled with him. But told him i am taken and how i miss in my relationship. And he told me maybe i miss the cuddling.

The second was in croatia. His parents had a house there with garden. And i was there to take care of the garden. There were also horses and i am allergic to horses. I noticed someone comes. It was ben barnes. I hid. Even as i was allowed to be here. He went for a ride. I hid. And later ithe dream i invited my co worker to have bbq in that garden.

And now.

I threw a party. My birthday? But it was too warm for it. Ben barnes and some guy got hired to play music of my laptop as dj.

Somewhen i talked to him outside. We took a walk. God knows why. I told him i had a hard crush on him. But not as kaspian as so many but as kirigan. I told him i had a crush on peter in narnia and he told me that is unterstandable. We laughed. We talked about diffrent things.

I told him i could never be with an actor. I am too unsure about myself to not feel worried about romantic scenes or when he would be away.

He told me then he isn't an actor anymore and that he loves me.

I was shocked, kinda happy but then i said: oi. Sorry. I am married and have a child. That there was no chance because i am very loyal.

He accepted it. Next thing i remember is a woman. Looking like she came out of a swamp. She attacked me with swamp spit. Poisoned mud. I ran away. Through the building. Ben barnes changed to kirigan and fight her. And i hang out of a window while calling the police.

I am writing a book. A fantasy book.

I don't know if i ever sell it. But getting something done is my goal.

Fantasy scenerio. I cannot reveal much rn.

mine complicated, i slit into depressive times again. But i am in therapy since February. I fight myself back to my own self, into a better life.

it works. I get rid of diffrent things, try to focus on other stuff.

its still a lot of work between being a mother, wife, work 33h per week und renovate a house. oh and the filling up other rolls as family member and friend too. yeahi.

nah. yeah. well. lets keep fighting and being a better person.

Sure. :)

Spoiler:

My brain cannot beliebe Vox really like Alistor back then.

The vox of the look back was too nice compared to the mad Vincent as human. Who killed co worker to get their position and be the only tv host in that company and even want it all. Maybe he knows he cannot kill Alastor. So he tried to team up with him. He also always speaks about to trust him etc. so it seems he only say to trust the Vees and all not because he wants to but its the way to get his goal. so why he would want to team up with Alastor when in human form he would just have killed him, to get his position?

I don't know. Its just a thought i have. does not have to be true at all.

i mean. look at him that cutie in the scene.

and then him as human: