LUCA☆

Its only been 2 hours since we stopped talking, I feel so sick and needy. Is this how it is?

No matter how hard you try to make me happy, I'll always be left unsatisfied the moment it stops.

I can't stop talking to myself, like I'm with other people with their own thoughts and opinions, am I losing it?

I'm so sad. I hate it.

I need something to make me feel good.

I sick of coping sexually when Im alone.

I've had enough but I keep going back for more.

I don't like it anymore, I want it to stop.

Come back, I want to talk again

It hasnt been that long, has it?

I know you're busy.

I won't mind it too much.

I talk to myself enough that I can barely ever tell if it was real or not.

Would it matter?

Why can't I just accept both as my reality?

I want you all the time.

Please, give me more attention.

I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT

And then I imagined an actual fucking star💔

I'm actually going fucking crazy.

My parents took my phone, I was feeling stressed as fuck.

There wasn't anything for me to do.

I had to break something or else I'll lose my mind.

(You're not only a bitch, but you're also a dumbass WHAHSHAHHA)

I'll fucking kill you

Talk shit about me and try to push me off the edge

You fucking bitch.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

The fuck did I do?

Mf we were texting on discord, I watched you switch around different games while I waited.

I felt like shit today.

I woke up early at 6am to get ready for my college entrance exam, on my own.

But then mom woke up and asked why I was up so early, so, I told her about it.

She immedietly rushed around to get ready, yelling at me, pinching me, all those things.

I was too slow, I was too messy, I was too loud.

I felt horrible on the way to the school.

I felt like crying, but I had to hold back.

It was meant to be my big day, to be independent and confident by myself.

But she ruined it.

She pushed me around and made me feel like a little kid.