I never even thought to look in the direction of my best friend but I have never been happier, he treats me like a queen and I’m still getting used to it, he’s my absolute world, I don’t know where I’d be without him, Andre. 

I'm sick and tired of not ever feeling good enough for the person I'm with, I'm constantly being hurt and lied to and it feels like sometimes I waste my time, I just want to be happy, but the one person who should make me happy makes me cry a hell of a lot more, tired of everything. Fed up with feeling like my friends don't even want to bother with me anymore, depression is really taking over my life and I try so hard for it not to. I constantly see so many beautiful girls at my work and it makes me feel like shit because I'm not exactly good looking material, time for a smoke, today is not a good day.