Liz. 30s. she/her. Librarian & Armchair Romantic with several obsessions in rotation
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WIP Wednesday because why not? I'm nowhere near ready to post the fic anytime soon, but I felt like sharing some more of my Hollanov TSC AU today, just for fun.
enclosed below: angst. whump. HR hospital scene remix:
"Ilyaaa!"
Ilya shushes him, closing the infirmary door behind him as quietly as he can. He's not sure where the Pikes' rooms are, but he doesn't want to risk waking the children, or Jackie.
He turns back around, his back to the door. "I just ā I just wanted to..." Ilya's voice leaves him, still catching on the memory of Shane lying motionless on the ground. His mind still hadn't caught up to how Shane looks now. "Are you okay?"
Shane bobs his head in a listless nod, as if he's drunkānot that Ilya's ever seen him drunk. "Iratzes fixed the shoulder and the collarbone," he taps on his sternum. "And the brothers said I would still feel the venom for a few hours but I feel fine," he slurs.
Ilya always finds Shane's denial amusing, adorable even, but he still can't shake away the fear that's held him all night.
It must show on his face, because Shane flops out his arm, reaching for him. "Hey," he says softly, then again, louder, "hey."
His volume finally gets Ilya to move. "Okay," he whispers, "shh, shh." He goes to Shane's side and takes his open hand, and his knees go weak at feeling it warm in his own.
"Yes," Shane hisses happily, his eyes drifting shut. "Bet-ter," he pronounces.
Heart in his throat, Ilya studies his face, looking for any lingering trace of injury, but the Silent Brothers and Shane's parabatai had healed it away. Shane is still pale from the effort of healing, making the freckles on his faces stand out even more. Even here, he's beautiful.
Ilya glances down between them, at Shane's thumb rubbing the back of his hand, as if to check he's still here. "You scared me," he confesses softly.
Shane hums. "'M'sorry."
"It's okay," Ilya whispers. He can't resist brushing a touch over Shane's cheek, warm under his fingers.
Shane smiles, prettier than any angel in Ilya's imagination, and leans into Ilya's touch. "And sorry 'bout last night. Hayden's hunt fucked up my plan."
Ilya presses his lips together, fighting a smile. "You will get him back for it, I'm sure."
Shane blinks his eyes open. They're a little distant, glazed overāthe aftereffects of the venomābut still him, the man Ilya's come to know piece by piece, hour by hour in the time they've stolen away together. "When will we get another chance?" he whispers.
The question nearly takes Ilya out at the knees. He feels it, the desire to stay here at Shane's side, to tell the Praetor and the Clave to fuck off and be wherever Shane needs him to be. Whatever he wants.
But that's not how this works. Shane's family and life are here, and while Ilya doesn't have the former, the latter he can only find somewhere else. Coming here last night was a mistake. Ilya's heart is in too deep, and to keep pretending it isn't is too painful to bear.
"I'm sorry," Ilya rasps, "I don't know."
Shane's mouth turns down in a frown, dark eyes wide, and Ilya aches. "You'll be at the Accords signing right?"
Ilya allows himself a nod. He can't imagine it will be any more enjoyable than the meeting last month, but Wiebe was counting on him, so he would be there.
"Will you come to the cottage after?" Shane asks.
"I ā" can't. I can't. "I don't know." He couldn't. He shouldn't. For Shane's sake even more than his.
Shane's hand twists in his grip, turning to interlock their fingers. "We could have a week, or even two, Ilya." His expression turns wistful, watching their joined hands. "Haven't you ever wanted more time?"
"Of course," Ilya blurts out. It was the last thing he should have said, but it was the honest answer.
"Then come with me," Shane pleads, "after the Accords. We'd be completely alone. Together. As long as you want to stay."
His words were still slurred by the Elapid venom, but it still sounded so perfect, and Shane was looking up at Ilya like he would shatter if Ilya said no.
"Maybe," Ilya answers, like the coward he is. "Maybe."
Shane beams, and Ilya thinks about doing more selfish, cowardly things, like kiss him, but then there's a knock at the door.
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me when one of my girlmutuals posts about how they got a little coffee beverage or took a nice walk or started a book they've been meaning to read for a while or otherwise found meaning and joy in simple pleasures
My whole life, I wanted to be a princess. And when I met Louis, it was this whole whirlwind of royalty and tiaras and it seemed like my dream was coming true. I mean, I may have married a prince, but I never really got to be a princess. I know it's silly, but I think it's just one more loss I needed to mourn before moving on.
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continuation of this short post where shane tipsily contemplates getting squished between ilya and marleauās sweaty bodies <3
itās been several months and shane isnāt even thinking anymore about getting panini-pressed between his husband and his husbandās bro-y best friend. it was buzzy and fun and ilya teasing him about it while they fucked afterwards was kinda hot but heās done with all that now.
thatās the plan, at least, until he finds himself in a club. finds himself a little drunker than he intended. finds himself on the dance floor, ilya guiding him with long, sexy movements that keep them pressed together so nicely, chest to chest. itās less dancing, to be honest, and more swaying. taking stock of each otherās bodies and following the ebb and flow of them. and shane is drunk and happy and a little turned on by his smoking hot husband so thatās why he reacts the way he does when it happens. when theyāre suddenly not alone.
shane is perhaps hyperaware of cliff marleauās presence tonight, but only in the way that ilya hasnāt gotten to see him in such a long time. itās a reunion of sorts. so vibes are up. his husbandās happy and that makes shane happy, his slightly swimming brain latching onto the endorphins that spike around marleau like theyāre his own.
itās why his body reacts the way it does when one moment, things are footloose and fancy free, and then the next, thereās this solid, hulking weight settling behind him, not touching but unmistakably there. itās marleauās deep voice. marleauās woodsy cologne. marleauās heat, hovering just shy of shaneās back as he leans over his shoulder to shout something at ilya.
itās loud as fuck in here, the bass sitting low in shaneās chest, so he really does mean shout. but ilya leans in a bit to catch his words. seamlessly. theyāve done this so many times, shane assumes, finding each other in clubs after inevitably splitting up. and thatās fine. thatās good. ilyaās laughing and heās happy and that makes shane happy. and then the crowd moves.
itās light - a ripple effect as a group of girls make their way through the sea of bodies - but itās just enough, that adrenaline spiking with a top-off of sweet endorphins as suddenly, marleauās body sinks in to press all along shaneās back.
itās nothing. an accident. and yet shaneās heart suddenly bunny-kicks in his chest, the light squeeze of him caught between ilya and marleauās chests sending a pulse of satisfied heat through his core. because neither of them are moving away. thereās a natural sway to them that comes from being in a crowd of bodies, but the extra space mustāve never freed up behind marleau after the girls passed. and all of the sudden shaneās brain and dick register that heās stuck. that heās squished, by firm muscles, from all sides.
heās been in this position before. on a dance floor like this. rose kissing him, milesās lips not so secretly brushing against the back of his neck. itās not a new position, but tonight is nothing like that. right now, thereās nothing remotely sexual even happening. itās just ilya talking to his friend. just having a moment. casual and circumstantial and yet shaneās skin is on fire. his muscles are screaming with relief, the beautiful satisfaction of the deep pressure surrounding him making his brain swim down deep.
ilya shouts something back to marleau with a devastatingly handsome smile. it gets both hands reaching over shaneās shoulders to give ilyaās a friendly rub and itās too loud to catch. all shane knows is theyāre both laughing now. theyāre like boys again - a revisit to their clubrat days and theyāre just as smooth and sexy but theyāre mature now. stable. and shane is ilyaās, those big hands on his hips now that marleauās snug against his back. thereās no room to actually dance and shaneās finding he couldnāt be happier about that, pulse thick and thundering in his ears as another wave presses in, marleauās touch dropping back to clamp over shaneās deltoids as heās forced to press forward again - so fucking tightly into him this time that shane stumbles that last half a step into ilyaās chest and fuck.
shaneās eyes flutter closed. hands fall to clutch into the back of ilyaās tank top. his dick jumps in his jeans as the heady pressure squeezing around him tightens. neither of the men seem to care that marleauās all up on shane and maybe thatās normal. maybe thatās just the way the club scene is. you get cozy and flush against your best friendās partner and no one bats an eye because it doesnāt mean anything. itās just a spacing issue.
maybe shaneās the freak.
because heās trying not to, but he can feel himself getting hard. he can hear all that teasing that poured from his husbandās lips after he admitted to hypothetically wanting this around that fire pit. the pressure. the trap. with this man specifically.
marleau leans his head back for a second and his warm breath fans against the nape of shaneās neck and suddenly, like a demon has possessed him, itās taking everything in shaneās power not to back his ass up into marleauās lap. to grind against him a little. just to see. god, heās drunk. he needs ilya to take him home and fuck him. he needs to stay right here and live out his days crushed between these two sweaty bodies, their colognes mixing into this insane aroma that gets in shaneās head and makes him wanna do something crazy.
he just needs to recenter. steady his pulse. enjoy the pressure without equating it to something filthy, like he can usually do so well, but for some reason is struggling hard as hell with right now.
shane rests his chin over ilyaās shoulder with a hum. closes his eyes. remembers himself and where he is and opens them back up, making eye contact with a twink whoās watching him with what can only be described as biblical proportions of envy.
they need to leave. before shane does something stupid. before he ruins a friendship thatās been in the works for over a decade because heās drunk and horny and canāt control himself.
shane lifts his head to brush his lips against ilyaās ear, but before he can ask, something happens behind them. whatever it is, itās got marleauās lap pressing up flush against his ass and god, it sends this buzzy pleasure through him so, so deeply and the noise escapes shane before he can reel it in. before he can act like heās normal and not very obviously so fucking turned on between them.
he can feel ilyaās chest rumble. hear the smirk thatās dancing across his lips as he noses his way over to shaneās ear instead.
āsoon,ā he murmurs, and shane has no way of knowing how his eyes flick up to snag on marleau over his shoulder. ālet us play with you a little longer.ā
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