I love being complimented by older women only, I love the free dessert that appears alongside my focaccia, I love the backhanded compliments, I love that depending on who you ask I am either a pure innocent angel who needs to be protected from the world or the devil reincarnated, I love having the cake and eating it too, I love when men offer me services, time, attention, discounts, upgrades, exceptions to rules that apparently do apply to other people, just for the privilege of a reason to see me again (I will not be coming back), I love watching a man lose his train of thought mid-sentence because something about my presence short-circuited whatever he was trying to say, I love the girls who talk about me while wearing my recs,Β I love the particular shade of red that crawls up someone's neck when they see me and thereβs nothing they can do about it, I love getting invited to things I didn't ask to be invited to,I love being too much for certain people because those people were always too little for me, I love when someone tries to neg me and I can see in real time that it isn't landing and they know it isn't landing and we both just have to live in that together for a moment, I love being the thing people reference when they're trying to describe what they actually want, I love breaking small rules and occasionally larger ones and having the audacity to do it with full eye contact and a pleasant expression while the person who is supposed to enforce the rule decides, correctly, that this particular battle is not worth having today, I love being the exception to someone's type, I love being remembered by people I don't remember, I love watching girls try to reverse engineer me and come up short every single time, I love being the reason someone sigils, I love being the reason someone's standards permanently increased, I love asking for things shamelessly, directly, without the apologetic preamble that women are socialized to attach to any request that might be considered too much and knowing before I've even finished the sentence that the answer will be yes, I love being pulled immediately into rooms and conversations and opportunities not just because of how I look but because of what I bring alongside it, I love being an experience people attempt to describe to others and fail.
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