“But I’m okay now. I thought I’d be enveloped in that sadness and yearning for you forever. Yet I suddenly found myself happy again. I found myself not thinking about you anymore and laughing and truly feeling alive again. Yes, I still miss you from time to time. I think a part of me always will because I loved you both as a signficant other and best friend. And that’s okay.”

Why am I here?“ She asked, "Did I make a mistake? Why am I here?” She asked herself more than me. I wish you knew how sorry I am. Things may not be what you want them to be. I really am sorry. I wish I could change that. You aren’t happy. I’m sorry. I wish I could change that too. I’m so sorry that you are tired of being unhappy. I know what it feels like, and it sucks. I know. I’m sorry. I wish I could change everything for you, and make you so happy that it radiates through everything you do and say. I’m sorry that I can’t. I’m sorry you feel like you are waiting for something that will never come. I promise you, it will. But I’m sorry that happiness hasn’t come yet. But in some ways it has. You have a nephew now. You have an entire family to lean on when things that get hard, and you know more than ever how much they love you. You have an opportunity to be so happy. You do. I’m sorry that you can’t see it though. Today sucked. I’m sorry. But tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow is your opportunity to find that happiness. So tomorrow, instead of waiting for it to be a good day, maybe make it a good day. I know it’s easier said than done. I’m sorry for that. I wish it was as easy as breathing, but even breathing is hard sometimes. I’m sorry that breathing hurts some times. That living hurts sometimes. I’m so sorry. But it will get better. It’s just that some things take time. But hey, everything that sucks today is only temporary. I’m sorry that you regret some things, but try to remember that it is only temporary and doesn’t define you in the least way. It definitely shouldn’t affect how you feel everyday. Easier said than done, but I promise that, in time, you will be where you want to be. I’m sorry that things take time, and I know that you want it to be better in an instance. But it won’t. I’m sorry. That’s just how it is and it sucks. But hey, you will be happy. Life would just be to cruel if it didn’t give you happiness after all of the stuff that has happened to you. So tomorrow, when you wake up, know that you didn’t make a mistake anywhere. When you wake up, know that you have a chance to be happy. When you wake up, remember that you are loved greater than you can imagine. When you wake up tomorrow, know that things suck some days and there might be nothing you can do about it. When you wake up tomorrow, know that some stuff sucks but you can do something about it. When you wake up tomorrow, you will feel better. I promise.