Clexa for me, is everything. I watch many shows. I ship many couples. But ClexaâŚ
Clexa is the promise that our sexuality is not a big deal. Lexa is the promise that a gay girl can be a badass leader, field with strength and independence. Clarke is the promise that a bi girl can also be not confused at all, and can be an awesome lady who fucking kicks asses.
Clarke and Lexa live, they lead, they fall in love, they hurt, they trust, they desire, they make mistakes, they do their best, they kiss, theyâre haunted, theyâre not okay, theyâre happy, they make choices, they kiss, they feel.
They didnât questioned themselves about their feelings and sexuality. Because they donât have to. They know who they are.
When I realized I was bisexual, I had no one to turn to. I had no one to talk to, and to get through this questioning. I had no character to identify to on TV. I was watching shows, and honestly seeing gay and lesbian characters didnât make me more comfortable about this because every time a gay character was in a show, his story was basically his coming-out, or his struggles with his friends/parents⌠And I think I was tired of that. I was tired of seeing that gay people always hurt in shows, or that their story was only evolving around their sexuality, or that they could never be bisexual because you know⌠Straight or gay, thatâs the rule.
And then arrives Clarke. This badass and sexy blonde, who appears to be bisexual. But did she questioned herself on that? Did she felt wrong after Lexaâs kiss? Did she make a big deal out of it? Did she come out to anyone? No, cause she doesnât care. She feels, and thatâs it. She feels, she kisses, she yells and then she gets out of the tent and tries to save her people, because thatâs what her story is really about.
And then arrives Lexa. This hot and smart commander, respected and trusted leader of a whole civilization, who appears to be gay. Well, did she come out to anyone? Does she let her story being told by her sexuality? No, because she doesnât care and she has to command an entire nation.
And it feels damn good. It feels good, for once, to see that being bisexual is a real thing, first. That it can be represented, finally. That it doesnât mean being confused, or being sad, or having our life evolving around that. That this is normal.
Clexa for me, itâs that: you can be bi, you can be gay. But you also can be badass, smart, beautiful, stubborn. You can be hard on yourself and on the others, you can make mistakes, you can hurt for losing someone. You can kiss, you can feel, you can lead. You can be strong. You can love. You can be independent. You can be free. You can yell and say what you think.
You can be all of that, and at the end, your sexuality is just a little detail with no importance. Because thatâs how it should be. A normal thing with no importance. Which doesnât define who you are.
Clexa is a huge, huge, huge step on LGBT representation. A representation which actually means everything for me. And for a lot of young people out there who I know, are searching for answers and things that will tell them: âYouâre beautiful, and youâre strong. See Clarke? She is just like you. See Lexa? She is just like you. Yes, I can assure you that they are. I can assure you that this, it is normal. What they have, is real. What they have, is beautiful and complicated because hey⌠Thatâs how relationships work.â
Thatâs what I was looking for back in my high school years. I didnât, but fortunately I managed to be okay with myself, and proud. And when I saw Clexa? I remember telling myself: âIt seems that I was right to be proud of myselfâ. And it made me cry from happiness.
Thatâs what Clexa is for me. So thank you.
