tomorrow, I leave my best friend
he doesnāt see this so I donāt care if I post it here.
have you ever fallen for your best friend? Yeah itās hard, it really does suck. Iāve thought about this day for years because itās unavoidable. To make yourself vulnerable, available for someone just for them to abuse it- are they really your friend? I loved him with my whole heart, I opened up parts of me that I sealed away.
he never cared, I was just a bandaid. I just filled the spaces he needed filled like putty. I met him before kids. He has known me since kids. He knows Iām afraid to love.
he doesnāt care. Tomorrow Iām ending our friendship and he has no idea. You prioritized our friendship but not my happiness. Did that even matter? Youāre as shitty as everyone else and I hope you get what you deserve.
I hope love isnāt easy for you because you make it seem difficult.
anyways, fuck you. Iām going to heal now.
