Diary Of A Mad Scorpio

I fear the Nissan Altima speeding allegations are true because if I’m like 10-15 mins behind getting somewhere, I bet you I’ll make it there in time lmaoo

I’m from Oklahoma, where the chance of you seeing two dark skin people(let alone black people) is verryyy low, so when I do see black couples I be so overjoyed you would think I’m in the mf relationship lmfaooo.

I don’t think I really believe in marriage. This idea that someone will love you unconditionally just seems unrealistic. I feel like that’s something reserved for your mother. Like your mom(and maybe your dad) are the only people in this world who will truly love you unconditionally because that’s just a connection you’re born with. Every time I think about marriage it seems like such a fairytale concept to me. Like it would be nice, but it doesn’t really seem realistic in my mind so it’s not something I ever really think about and have cut off as an option mentally. This is probably an unhealthy way to think and maybe it’ll change as I get older. Just my thoughts for now.

The documentary Should I Marry A Murderer? on Netflix was so good to me and I don’t even usually like documentaries. The woman telling her story of what happened was such a good storyteller. She told the story with so much emotion I felt like I could really feel what she was going through. I have so much empathy for her cause it was kinda just a reminder that at the end of the day, everybody on this earth really just wants to be chosen.

Porn blogs always get blocked by me on here lol

The scariest type of men are the ones who see you as something to conquer or like a game they can win.

Honestly I’m nosey af I ain’t even tryna hide it no more lmaoo

I was today years old when I found out Ari Lennox whipped cream is a sampled song.

Colorism and disdain for darker skin poc and ethnic features has always been so strange to me because for as early as I can remember, as a young kid, I always thought ethnic features were so beautiful. Like I remember being like 7 and thinking that I wanted to look like all the other black girls that had their hair braided. I always wanted my lips to be bigger(like before it was a trend and I knew what lip fillers were, I knew I wanted lip fillers lmaoo) I was so jealous of black girls with big lips. I always thought it was so beautiful and curly hair and afros and then I remember when I saw Degrassi for the first time and that Indian girl was on there. I think her character’s name was Ali lmao, but i just remember her being the most beautiful girl in the world to me. I wanted to look like her so bad lol. And I wasn’t even necessarily around a ton of black people growing up, I’ve just always been drawn to us.

Insecure and Euphoria(except for the last season) have some of the best soundtracks I’ve ever heard in a show. One of my fav moments in insecure(soundtrack wise) is when Molly was upset and Dro drove her home to comfort her and they fucked for the first time. That scene where they were fucking>>>vibes were immaculate. Perfect choice of a song.

Depression is a mf. I wanna stay up forever but I also wanna sleep forever and never wake up wtf