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becoming too OC pilled will ruin your fandom experience forever. i have invented The Character who is perfectly tailored to my own tastes and not beholden to any writers or showrunners. and i can even make more of them if i want. but watch out.
Something so funny about rereading one's own unfinished fics. Like wow this is pretty good! Almost as if was written exactly according to what I personally like in fact! Someone should finish it!
i think this captures the defining pathology of the collective social media psyche right now. we are in the thrall of people who are wantonly cruel but who also demand to be coddled at all times in every way
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Do you think, if presented with the oppertunity, bruno would change her name? And, if so, what do you think she would choose?
i need to preface my answer to this ask with the fact i have a fanfic writer's soul with a fanartists temperament and sheath bc i am painfully indepth with my headcanons + character reads and every question you could possibly ask me about bucciarati has a 3000 paragraph explanation behind it. in this post is a tldr and then at a point i just kind of became crazy and dumped all my bucciarati thoughts wordvomit style so here goes
tldr that is still long as shit: for better or worse, bucciarati's first name isn't ever particularly relevant to her life. in ideal circumstances (bucciarati never joining the mafia or losing a standard connection to her parents prematurely) she would formally introduce herself with a feminine chosen first name for herself, but i also don't think bucciarati is particularly imaginative or would want to stray far from her given name.
my immediate thought for a name is just... the feminine version of 'bruno,' which for most english speakers would be 'bruna' but in italian would end up being 'brunella' or 'brunetta'. you could even match it to the spelling of her last name!!! brunella if you spell it as 'buccellati', brunetta if you spell it as bucciarati. it's cutes to me.
professionally speaking, nobody is calling her by her first name anyway, BUT, bc of the way italian petnames work, she could just as easily receive either of these as pet-names without ever formally or informally reintroducing herself.
obviously in my brumis heart this would mainly be from mista, who does at their most romantic and intimate still defer to calling her bucciarati in formal settings but probably has three trillion other petnames for her as well in an informal one. brunella and brunetta are simply sweet, feminine variations on her name as it is, which to me just affirms bruno's name as Her Name and the outside context surrounding it as inconsequential + irrelevant.
honestly i just don't think bruno is ever in a place of specific discomfort with her first name being used unless it oversteps an existing professional boundary, which is less of a gender issue and more of an internalized child professional issue. it's a token of affection reserved for the absolute closest to her and thus the inherent intimacy and knowledge of bruno as a person overrides any worry of being seen as a man for having a masculine name. but ☝️ i am willing to hear arguments on this
ok tldr over. however i AM going to use this ask as an excuse to really dig into my bucciarati take so stop here if you're satisfied OR go under the cut for the real meat and potatoes. mwah + her cuteness
when it comes to closeted trans hcs (ie: the gender of the character in canon is not their ideal gender presentation), i almost always come up with a new name for them to don once they've reached a point where they are aware of their gender and at least in the ballpark of thought-to-openly-transition. however, i also tend to think of trans hcs with a set point of revelation. this character didn't know they were trans, has discovered it, and is now rearranging and reworking their identity around this understanding.
bucciarati is an exception to this in that i do read tfem bruno as a "has always known in some sense, perceived herself as this and simply never spoken it aloud bc it wasn't a cognizant enough thought at the time -> forced into a position where she had to deny it for most of her life, ie: only experienced a push into donning explicit manhood by joining the mafia" sort of character. never fully aligned herself with boyhood and has always seen herself as at least vaguely 'girlish', being closer and relating more to her mother, taking up her position in the home when she left, etc. internalized misogyny mayhaps if u wanna read it as such but i focus more on the parentification for an overall read and her mom as the figure she was closer to and the role that she chose to fill from a trans read.
the main logistical reason behind why i don't think bucciarati 'officially' changes her first name (even once she's at a point of post-canon gender affirmation and elation where those around her are aware of her being a woman and she is happily exploring) (yayy. let's all think about it) is bc she is a highly recognizable figure in the italian crimeworld. it'd be hard to pull off outside her tight social circle unless she effectively killed 'bruno bucciarati' and went fully off-the-grid through some undefined passione-linked means, which would require a full change of her name + identity + parts of her appearance anyway. glances around this could be an interesting post-canon "bucciarati doesn't rejoin passione" revival concept.
the main emotional reason i don't think bucciarati thinks to change her name, although she definitely could among team bucciarati after a while, is bc 'bruno' is the name her parents gave her. bucciarati didn't seem 2 have much interaction with other kids or adult figures (who, frankly, may have mistook her for a girl anyway) aside from her parents so at least as i think of it 'bruno' has always been her name before it was a gendered name. if anything 'bucciarati' is the name more associated with her losing her personhood and childhood to the mafia, since nobody would've referred to her as such prior. i also think of bruno as autistic which puts a specific social read onto this that i cannootttt try to get into rn LMFAO just know i think about that too
'bruno' is an informal name basically no one uses for her anymore because everyone she's worked with and everyone she's close to is a group that terminally overlaps, so they've all been using 'bucciarati' for years anyway. asking or having someone else decide to use 'bruno' would express a degree of personal closeness and intimacy to her as a person that bruno doesn't particularly believe (and could have been given reason to believe is outright bad or wrong) is possible from anyone but her parents/any other biological family members she may have, let alone prioritized over professionalism. for as much of a second home as bucciarati could possibly be to someone under her wing/in her team she herself is canonically a "blood is thicker than water" truther (see: her response to trish's worries abt diavolo) who has not read to the end of that phrase.
yes bruno's subordinates are important to her she cares about their safety and wellbeing and might even enjoy being around them in a casual setting etc etc. but ☝️ they are her subordinates before anything else. fugo is the only person who knew bruno before she had subordinates and fugo unfortunately has their own complexes surrounding authority figures and having exclusively professional relationships that gets in the way of that pretty hard. getting distracted from that is to get distracted from the job (the mafia) is to distract herself from her mission (protecting her father, then protecting her community) is to forget herself (what she needs to be for everyone else's sake << who her true realized self would be if she gave it too much reflection) and on and on and on and this is how bruno spends 8 years of her life depressed and disassociated and depersonalized and doing zero self-reflection until she meets giorno.
(as a completely unrelated side note (lying) i do think the 'never attending formal schooling and joining a heavily policed, professional, violent and pvp-enabled adult space before you are thirteen' may ruin a person's ability to make friends or form intimate personal relationships and perceive them as such. funny how that works)
bucciarati's whole thing to me is ingrained in who she was, the values she held, the people around her, and the mission she took on as a child; her hairstyle has remained the same since she was a kid (only now her hair is long enough to require an elaborate braid to maintain that appearance, which could also imply an aversion to haircuts/others having influence over her appearance. i love to imply this.). whether it's fair or not, whether she rolls back on it or not, i fear bucciarati might perceive changing her name from bruno as a betrayal against her parents (her father especially) to such a degree that it is just really not something she desires. she loooves to hold onto her childhood aches she loves to let them define her.
*this is also not me arbitrarily reading bruno's appearance as more girlish or feminine than other jojo characters. like word of god word of araki bruno's appearance is feminine and girlish and he designed her that way. so from a transfem read the implications of that, being true of her appearance both in childhood and as she is in canon in tandem with bruno's overall repression of her childhood values and kindness, feels like a shoe-in. although you could read this from a nonbinary transfem lens as well, not just a binary trans woman lens.
so yeah, again, if not for bucciarati's specific circumstances, both her canon life circumstances and as i hc her experience ^ with gender/mourned and cut prematurely short relationships w her parents above, id probably say yes to a social and (in a modern au) potentially legal name change to bruna, brunella (if you spell her last name as 'buccellati') or brunetta (if you spell her name 'bucciarati'). hell in a world where bucciarati never joined the mafia or joined the mafia later in life (even like, later into her teenage or early adult years) AND she had her parents for longer, i really do think she would've just privately transitioned at some point, stealthed it out and never looked back.
in practice i mainly use 'bruno' first name as a placeholder that can be slotted in or out depending; bc transitioning has always been a half-in half-out for her, she's expressing her gender long before any formality is on the table and mainly for herself, and there are some blind spots bc of it. she wouldn't think about the conflict of bruno being a masculine name until someone else pointed it out bc she has been referred to by bruno and he/him pronouns (albeit the pronouns would cause her more inner turmoil) and still always perceived herself as a woman even if she couldn't bring herself to vocalize it with that term.
as a guilty pleasure i do also like to play around with less serious reads on both bucciarati's emotional/mental state as of gw and passione in which it has less of the patriarchal/toxic masculine pitfalls that the mob usually requires where bucciarati is out and transitioned. albeit admittedly still going thru it just like, with proper pronouns, the gender is helping to alleviate some of the more personal issues even if the aggravating outside-force betrayal of ones values does, etc.
all of this stupid intricate intimate thought comes from a deep affection for bucciarati as a character and me wanting her to be Happy and Grow and Change and Realize Herself bc god knows being 20 is already hard enough. but i do think bruno is also comfortable in a lot of the more intimate aspects of herself as long as she is given room and support to acknowledge her own value and worth and personhood by those around her instead of zipping it away. a lot of bruno's identity really HAS been true since childhood and remain that way, and she was just never given an opportunity to grow or explore from that point the way an adolescent at the age she entered the mafia would have gotten to.
the way i've described it in fics (from bruno's pov) before is that she might've been (was) a girl once but has never really gotten to be a woman even though she had to mature much faster than she should have. which on top of being a very distinct byproduct of the c-ptsd and depersonalization i imagine she struggles with after her father gets hospitalized is just a very early twenties feeling to have regardless
and also mista giving her pet names. can we circle back to mista giving her cute pet names i want to talk about mista giving her pet names
About Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game😢😢😢🥺🥺🥺 1 , 12 and 29
Art programs you have but don't use?
the thing is i've basically tried all of the big ones at least once in my life w very few exceptions but i DO still have sai on my computer (spent years shit-talking csp out of jealousy and then got it and immediately went Okay yeah people weren't lying this fucking rulessss). i technically don't REALLY use firealpaca either but i do use it to export my animated gifs after drawing the frames in clip studio paint.
12. Easiest part of body to draw?
it depends on the angle LOL i'm very much someone who has internalized "symbols" over actually understanding wtf i'm doing. generally though at my most artblocked i can still draw a pretty decent face, which is why WHEN i'm artblocked i tend to do a lot of symmetrical ruler character busts and scrabbly expression doodles. noses + lips/mouths come The easiest to me though, which is why i tend to emphasize them in my art. very easy to diversify <3
29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically
taps chin. artistic inspiration IS conductive to my love of media is the problem here. everything i've ever enjoyed enough to say i LOVE has inspired me in some way or another. esp bc i have questionable memory retention and art is largely how i recall specific eras of my life. stylistically speakinggg... mm.
tbh although i DID draw my friends scully and mulder once i'm getting there with x-files. i looove x-files but notoriously i am allergic to live-action media bc you can't really stylize or headcanon a live-action character too much, at least the way i tend to, without betraying the actor's likeness.
this is also why i feel so inspired in fandoms like jjba, ace attorney and (begrudgingly) danganronpa, ie: interesting designs where the characters tend to lack the more realistic physical diversity and the story doesn't particularly justify it.
most of my fave fandoms have chars that are still entirely recognizable by outfit and hairstyle or vibe and writing even if i change literally everything else and that is soooo ideal for me. switch up the noses more switch up the eyes more give a further range of bodytypes etc etc. i am in a ripped leather jacket beating same face syndrome and same body syndrome off with a bat apocalypse style <3
can i answer none. i am so bad at drawing clothes it is NOT funny like truly i am sooo dogshit at it. following recent trends though (cough) i'd say i most enjoy drawing lingerie/nightgowns/etc, that flavour of garb (tm), in the same way i used to really enjoy extremely pink high femme clothing with heart motifs. whatever the Character (tm) mostly wears is what i stockholm myself into enjoying.
i have elaborate fantasies of one day becoming competent enough at drawing pleats and ruffles to draw cute poofy dresses and competent enough at folds and silhouettes to draw elaborate intricate mob suits. if this day ever comes to pass, i'm sure bucciarati will be put in both <3
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7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what
15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)
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7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate
frankly this is all traditional art bc if i'm entirely real i was raised with a silver spoon in my mouth (raised on electronics and has been doing digital art since i was six years old) but hmm. i'm most fond of traditional construction. charcoal work and intricate ink work both greatly impress me. i'm also a fan of the rockwell/pulp art look which iirc tended to be done in oil paint, although i don't know enough abt oils to say much more than that. OH OH and cels!!!! i love the look and quirks and sheer Intricacy of cel animation!!!! i take a lot of inspo from 80s - 90s animated movies in my stuff.
11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what?
ohhh yeah but it depends. i tend to rotate between listening to music and watching youtube videos. sometimes i'll be on call with people either chatting or watching shows. often times esp for bigger pieces of mine (see below examples) i got inspired by a song (yes very jojos fan of me i know) so i'll play that song until i get sick of it so i can stay in the Inspo Zone (tm)
15. *Where* do you draw?
see so um funny story i draw on my laptop and my laptop, bless, except not actually, is the most horseshit piece of junk on planet earth. never buy asus laptops. i got this thing in 2022, and i promise i am NOT that reckless with my belongings, but one of the hinges is broken and has since cracked the frame holding the screen as well in its absence, like four of the keys on the built-in keyboard just Stopped Functioning Consistently, and i fear if i close its lid it will never open or run again.
however: as long as i just keep it on my desk like a pc things are fine. so i quite earnestly do not draw ANYWHERE but my desk unless i'm going on an extended vacation (read: more than two days), in which i, person who draws everyday but does not like traditional, bust out my much shittier, smaller laptop with about 30gigs of storage and transfer my csp license over. i recognize that i should probably budget and set aside money to buy a new laptop before this one kicks the bucket for real but mann laptops are so spensiveeee and this one DOES function.
longwinded explanation to say yeah i work at my desk and exclusively my desk. before my laptop was broken + before i had a desk i'd draw in my bed, which did horrific things to my little teenage spine. but now i have an ergonomic chair and a desk :)
reading back my own writing (falls cutely and the link to a postcanon brumis oneshot falls out of my pocket) like damn op should post more this rules. then turning to the combined word total of all my jjba wips like
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