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tell me where to put the anger so I don't store it within me

i don’t enjoy anything anymore and it is driving me fucking crazy

how can someone feel so much and feel so empty at the same time?

When life’s so shitty you can’t even put it into words anymore

Constantly switching between healing and complete self destruction

I'm so tired of being in this vicious cycle of hating myself and not feeling good enough

Not all pain is loud. Some of it is silent, unnoticed—drowning with a steady heartbeat, screaming without a sound.

pretending to be fine is very exhausting

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

Life is not fair

"Why aren't you trying?" fuck you, I'm fucking trying my best to not kill myself right now

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

i dont know how to ask for help without feeling like a burden