Jibun o mitsukeyou to shite iru......

I Wonder…

This is over the edge for me, but I feel comfortable sharing with my sisters of girly boy land.  So, be warned that the following blog contains illicit ideas and thoughts.  I don’t share so explicitly this often, but maybe it’s okay on a rare occasion to be more transparent and a bit edgier.  Please don’t make me regret sharing this. 

I admit that I often wonder and fantasize about, though have never experienced, sex with a man while being the “girl”.  I doubt that I’ll ever live this out in reality for reasons of fidelity, but the curiosity is still there.  I wonder… 

…and I’m just laying it out…

I wonder what it would be like to kiss a boy when I’m dressed as girly as I can be.  I wonder what it would be like to pet and stroke a man through his clothes to arouse him and seduce him to desire me.  I wonder what it would feel like for him to undress me slowly and caress me as he would a special lady.  I wonder what a penis other than my own would feel like in my hands, rubbing it, stroking it, and teasing it.  How would it feel on my lipstick stained lips or in my mouth as I wrap my lips around its swelling?  What adventurous dances could i perform with my tongue?  What would another man’s precum taste like?  How would his balls feel, cupped in my hands?  Could I make a man shudder?  Could I make him beg for more?  Would I give up control or take control?  And what about laying out skin-on-skin with a man on the bed, wrapping my shaven legs around his, our bodies gyrating back and forth in anticipation of our eventual inner connection?  I wonder what it would feel like to have a guy begin to work his oil-lathered manhood into my virgin hole, slowly but surely, inching in and tapping that special spot.  How would it feel to welcome his slow but increasing pulses, building speed and probing my inward cavities?  I wonder what it would feel like for a man’s cock to pulse uncontrollably in its highest act of praise for me as a woman, gifting me his pleasure treasure while I lose every inhibition of my own sexual prowess. How would it feel for us to lie together in the afterglow, slowly regaining our strength and catching our breath?  I wonder…

That’s all that it has ever been…wonder…but I still wonder.  I don’t intend to seek it out to live it out, but I still wonder.  For those of you girlies who have never had any such experience, do you wonder too?

I’m no prude.  I’m a sexual being who enjoys intimacy.  I simply happen to wonder from time to time how it could feel to be a girly boy with a man in the throws of an intimate sexual venture.  If this blog was too much, I apologize.  If it was not enough, I’m sure you have plenty of places to find what you’re looking for.  If the caption does not represent you in your girliness, i completely understand.  Fantasies are fantasies and we all have them.

And, btw, please understand that this is not an invitation to message me for  a virtual sex-chat. lol