The Dark Lord

Padme stood on the edge of a tall ravine that dropped into a lake far below. She stared into the abyss below with no signs of movement but her hair and clothes in the wind. How could she be here and how could Anakin be here and seem only slightly happy? How could she be here and her children not? How can she act like everything is okay anymore? The dark thoughts and feeling in her soul came to the edge as she stared over. It reminded her a bit of the drops on a planet she’d visited once and the water was as bright and blue as the water on naboo. Though she felt like it, Padme shed not one tear. Her face remained expressionless. She wanted to be back in her galaxy, on her planet and with her children. She only saw each of them once after she’d given birth but she felt they were still alive. She prayed they were. As she heard someone walk up behind her, she didn’t move. She didn’t make any notion she knew they were there, she just lifted her head to the sky.

Though Anakin had not been on this strange planet for long, he was gradually growing to realize how different this galaxy was from his own.Padme continued to reiterate over and over that this was a fresh start, but how could it be a fresh start, not after all that he had done. The  torment lived within in his very soul that he could not escape, not even in his dreams. Pushing his foot forward, Anakin began to stroll until his eyes focused on the serene presence he knew so well. It was like a soft ocean breeze in the air. Pressing his lips outward, the former Jedi stood there for a moment in silence as he angled his collar down and stared at the ground below him. He felt her worries, sadness, even fear. “They are alive.” The soft words finally left his lips, leaving a sad taste in his mouth. He can remember so vividly the day Padme told him she was pregnant, and though Anakin was scared he had never been filled with such warmth in his life, minus marrying Padme. He'd be a father- he'd  have family and no one was going to take that away from him, not again. The memory of Padme dying in childbirth still haunted his soul. He had done everything to protect her from that outcome when in reality he should have been protecting her from himself. He killed her. He is the reason their family is broken. Instead of helping them, once again Anakin had failed  and all that was left was his power. Anakin pushed his foot forward once more as he  approached Padme and just stood next to her silence, extending his hand out as he intertwined their fingers but  no words were spoken. 

She knew this was her anakin, this was the man she’d allowed herself to love. The man who loved her, This was not the man he’d turned into after her death. This was the love of her life. She rested her head on his chest, her arms coming up under her chin. She felt at peace in his arms, almost happy but Padme had a feeling she wouldn’t be happy for quite awhile. Possibly not until she knew what had happened to her children, had they survived? “I can say that because this is our new beginning here. Nobody here knows what you i, what happened.” She said, her voice soft and hoarse. “I’d kill to keep you in my life, to protect you too anakin. Any day.” She lifted her head off his chest and turned his head towards her. “It’s okay my dear, everything will be okay. I’m here now Ani, we can start all over again. We can build a family here. We can live together and die together.” She pressed her lips against his for a quick second. “There is no threat to us here.” She said, placing her forehead on his. This is where she wanted to be and she knew the moment wouldn’t last long. She wanted this to be how her life was, this is how she wanted to live on this island. With anakin and with no fear. But, the longer she sat in his arms the sadder she got because she knew this would be rare. 

I’d kill to keep you in my life, to protect you too Anakin. Any day. It’s okay my dear, everything will be okay. I’m here now Ani, we can start all over again. We can build a family here. We can live together and die together.Here is no threat to us here.-As the words left Padme’s lips, Anakin felt his beautiful wife press her forehead against his and his eyes stayed closed in fear this wasn’t real. Her breath was so warm, soothing and inviting; whereas everything else around Anakin always felt so cold.When he lost Padme, there was no reason for his being anymore, she had been the last person in his life that cared about him and when she died, he wanted to die with her too. Sometimes he had even tried  to rid himself of this world because the pain had just been unbearable. One of the hardest parts of it was  that he couldn’t even remember hurting her; the one person who saw him for him and not some prophecy  as the Jedi often did but Padme saw him as “Ani”, nothing more and nothing less. Before Anakin could even respond, he felt the gentle touch of their lips touching for a moment and just as he was about to get lost in it, the kiss was over.Very slowly he reopened his eyes and for the first time in a long time, some of his darkness was gone. Padme was his light, she always had been “ Don’t ever say that.” Anakin said as he extended his arm out and placed his hand on her cheek and rubbed it softly in circles with his thumb. “You’re so gentle and perfect, unlike me. I’m rough and just a screwed up mess. Don’t kill Padme, not even for me. I’m not worth it”.As the last words left his lips, his voice cracked. He just wanted to forget about the what he had done, the lost of their child, he just wanted to be in this moment with her. Anakin rand his hand down from Padme’s lips to her neck and very slowly leaned in as he gently pressed his lips into hers. The kiss was gentle and soft but brought him so much happiness, the happiness he had forgotten existed. After a long moment of getting wrapped up in her kiss, Anakin pulled away slightly as his eyes just stared into hers with love. “ I love you so much” He whispered in almost desperation.

Padme wished she’d have power over time. Freeze this moment or rewind back to it so she could live forever in this small moment of bliss. All her worrying left her mind for that tiny moment, all the fear and the self loathing was no where to be found but the second his lips left her she felt like part of her was being torn away once more. All the thoughts came rushing back but she kept a strong facade, trying to keep her composure she smiled at anakins next words. “You mean the entire galaxy to me, i do hope you know that my dear..” She said softly, resting her hands on his chest. She wanted to be held by him, his chin on top of her head and her ear pressed to his heart. Her safe haven was his arms and her home was his eyes and his smile so when she saw him smile she did too.  She hoped this wasn’t just her heaven. That this was real. She felt alive, she had a heartbeat and she could get hurt but does that really mean she was alive? Well, scientifically yes but a healthy body does not mean she’d live. Otherwise she wouldn’t have died that day. When he closed his eyes and the tear slipped past his eyes lids she was quick to kiss it away, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek and wrapping her arms around him. “There’s no need to be sad Ani, Everything will be okay..” She whispered.

Violet narrowed her eyes. “You think that’s the only weapon I’ve got on me?” She was an assassin after all and they were trained to kill people, well, supernaturals and always be prepared. The one thing Violet never did, was show fear. She folded her arms and took a step toward him. The girl then took out some ash and poured it around herself creating a circle. “What the hell are you?” She took off her themo cut necklace and twirled it around in her hands.

As the daring woman took a step closer to Anakin, his amusement only rose with a smirk across his lips. Anakin tilted his head to the side as eyes shifted to the ash that woman poured around herself.“ Is that suppose to protect yourself from me?” He asked curiously with amusement in his tone. Anakin shifted his weight  to his left side as he extended his arm out and with the force grabbed her weapon he had thrown to the side. As he held the weapon, his eyes  glanced at the pathetic tool that was supposed to hurt him. The former Jedi threw the weapon in the circle next to her.

Voilet had no idea how she’d gotten to this island in the first place. Last thing she’d remembered she was back at Beacon Hills now she was here. What was going on? Violet walked and walked for what seemed like forever until she heard a twig snap behind her. Her head whipped around . “I hear you!” She yelled out. She took her dagger out of her boot and held it up. “Come out, now!”

I hear you! Come out, now!-As Anakin heard the fear from the  words leave a woman’s lips, he showed himself as he let out a laugh. The former Jedi pushed his hood off his head as his once blue eyes were now a yellow tint and glaring at the woman in front of him. Anakin began to slowly stroll towards the woman in front of him as his lips  and eyebrows were pursed out.How could she dare talk to him like that or let alone threatened him. He was the most powerful in all of the galaxy now that he got away from the Jedi who were just holding him back. Anakin was no longer Anakin anymore, he was different; stronger, more powerful. As he noticed the woman holding up some kind of weapon, Anakin  almost wanted to laugh again but instead extended his arm out and with the force threw the weapon to the side. “ Now, let’s try that again.” 

Padme met anakins eyes steadily, she saw the eyes of the man she loved of Anakin skywalker the greatest jedi of all time and not Darth Vader, great dark lord of the sith. The two people were inside the same body but two different sides of a coin.You never know who you would end up with. “I love you Anakin, With every being of my soul, i love you.” She whispered softly, before their lips met. She returned the kiss full heatedly though she wished he’d never kiss her. Not that she wanted to not love him or be his but she had a feeling he was going to leave her again, that this was going to be all over once again. their love was everything to Padme, he as everything but she felt it was only a convenience for him. That he’d only love her any time it was convenient for him.  She wasn’t a priority, she was an option. An option to anything else and she hated that. She hated not being top on his list, his number one choice. She hated that she wanted to hate him but couldn’t. There were hundreds of reasons for padme to hate him, to want to betray him but all of them were dulled down by the millions of reasons to love him, to be faithful to him.

As Anakin savored the moment of Padme’s kiss against his, he almost wanted to memorize the smell and taste of her lips against his so that they would stay embedded in his memory. The former Jedi was reluctant to pull away, but after much debate within himself, Anakin finally did so and slolwy opened his eyes. Their eyes locked onto each other and very slowly Anakin ran his hand  from her cheek down to the back of her neck as he held it gently and let a wide smile appear across his face. He couldn't remember the last time his lips curled into a smile. All Anakin ever felt lately was anger, hate, and rage; feelings Palatine had ensured him were the key to controlling the force and saving his family, but right now, those  feelings seemed to be nonexistent. " I love you too Padme. I'd do anything for you" He said softly as he rubbed the back of her neck ever so softly. Anakin knew this was a mere depiction of his vivid dreams he often had of her, this wasn't real. Padme was dead and though it hurt it was almost better to forget her rather than be reminded of the constant memory of what they could have had. Sometimes he wanted to see her face and almost pretend she was here with him and this was one of those times.After a few moments passed, he closed his eyes, to ignore everything around him and another teardrop streamed from his eyelids. Padme was everything to him, and the fact that she died because of him was a guilt that would never go away, not even the force could take that away from him.It haunted him daily.  Everything about Padme was intoxicating, but he loved her more than anything else in all of the galaxies. The former Jedi knew he needed to let her go, after all, she had betrayed him and her love wasn't real but Anakin couldn’t seem to let her go. 

Padme sat in silence, staring at nothing but thinking about everything. When she’d first met anakin she would never have thought he’d mean so much to her, or hurt her so much. She loved him more then anything, through the stars she’d always love anakin but part of her is different, if not all of her but the part of her that so truly loved anakin stayed the same. She turned her head to look at him once again as he spoke and her heart dropped, it twisted and felt like it was breaking all over again. She was hurting, more so probably then him because not only did she not have him, could she not love him but she had seen their children, their beautiful children and had never held them. She didn’t get to watch them grow up and become amazing Jedi’s or what ever that they wanted to become. “Why are you in pain Ani? All i’ve ever wanted was for you not to hurt, I wanted you to be happy. I’ve always wanted you to be happy.” She said softly, reaching over an brushing his hair back, holding her hand there on his cheek and softly brushing her thumb across it.

As Anakin felt Padme’s thumb move from his hair to his cheek, their eyes met and for a moment, he almost forgot that she didn’t love him and wanted him killed. He almost forgot like Obi Wan, Padme betrayed him even though he was trying to protect their family. Instead of thinking of their reality, Anakin as always got lost in the moment with Padme and disregarded the truth he knew to be real. The touch of her hand brushing against his cheek brought electricity running through every nerve in his body, a feeling he  had trained himself to almost forget.The former Jedi had every reason to angry and full of pain but in this moment, it was almost irrelevant. Anakin could feel Padme’s fear but he stepped closer to her and without a second thought leaned into the woman that he loved and gazed into her eyes for a moment. In that moment all that Anakin could see or feel was his love for Padme, the way once upon it use to be. Very slowly he continued to lean into her until their lips met and he wrapped his lips around the top of Padme’s as he began to kiss her. As Anakin kissed her, all he could see were memories of them; the first day they met or even their wedding. Everyday with Padme was a  memory that Anakin could not let go of even though he knew he  couldn't trust her.Their love was merely a convenience for her.Love betrayed him but the dark force didn't and even though Anakin knew all that to be true, he couldn't help himself, he just wanted to taste her lips again, even if it was for a moment. 

She would regret those words the second they left her mouth. She didn’t want to look at him anymore, to have him next to her or feel this pain, god this was the worst pain she’d ever been in. When she felt him touch her, she was shocked. This wasn’t a connection that she’d first initiated. “You’re right here but that doesn’t mean anything Ani.” She said softly, fear in her voice. “You’re stronger then ever but you act like you hate me, like i’ve done something wrong and i just want to be in your arms again…” Anakin made her so weak and she absolutely hated it. This wasn’t who she was, who she ever was but once you die and come back, part of you changes and she wished it never did. She looked away from him, staring out to the ocean once more as she forced herself to calm down. “I’ve been dying a little bit everyday since you came back to my life.” She whispered the words she’d told him the day she thought they where going to die, running her hand through her hair. She’d do anything she could to go back to that day and do everything differently besides fall in love with anakin, they were meant to be then but now she was scared that fate was just a cruel mistress that loved playing tricks on her. This wasn’t how she wanted this to be, this wasn’t how she wanted to feel. “I feel so lost..”

You’re right here but that doesn’t mean anything Ani.You’re stronger then ever but you act like you hate me like I've done something wrong and I just want to be in your arms again- When those words left Padme’s lips, Anakin could almost feel his heart freeze.Anakin could never hate Padme, he loved her more than life itself, but he couldn't handle the pain of everything that they had become. He can still remember so vividly in his mind when he was just a kid and told himself he’d marry her someday. She was so much more than an angel, she was perfect. When he was alone, sometimes he would create memories in his mind of what they could have been in another lifetime but Padme had died and there was no reason to feel anything but numbness.  He still wasn’t sure how he had awoken with no burns, but the memory of her death still was vivid as if it was yesterday.A pain that couldn’t escape him. As those words left her lips, Anakin pulled his hand away from Padme and rolled his head down as a tear drop streamed down his eyelid and he just sat there in silence for a long moment before speaking. “ I could never hate you Padme, even if I tried. I just can’t be near you without feeling pain, pain that won’t go away. Pain that I trained myself to numb myself to but you bring it back and I don’t want to feel it, I can’t.” Anakin said as he choked the words out before closing his eyes and having his mind leave him. 

Padme’s back straighted a little bit when she heard him speak, she heard her ani speak to her and she choked on her tears. “I would never have asked you to do that, you loved being a jedi more then anything in the world. It would have been like you asking me to step down from being senator, even though i would have if you’d asked.” She said softly, biting her lip slightly to keep her composure, she wanted to lean against him. She wanted to be in his arms and cry on his shoulder once more, just one more time in his arms. that’s all she ever wanted. Anakin always made her feel a mixture of emotions but never sad, angry and utterly destroyed at the same time. She wanted to bottle her feelings right now, to hide how she felt but it was hard. When he was so close but she could not love on him.  She wanted him to know she still loved him, always will but right now she was to sad, to depressed to love or do anything. “I miss you..”She whispered softly, glancing in his direction for a second, but it turned out to become a mistake. looking at him made her heart twist and throat swell and the tears slipped down her cheeks silently.

I miss you..- When Anakin heard those words, it almost felt as if he had lost her again. Anakin would never want to hurt Padme in any way. He did everything he did so they could be together and not have to worry about her dying in child birth or even the Jedi coming between them. The former Jedi pivoted his neck back around when he saw Padme looking at him with tears in her eyes. Anakin slid closer to Padme as he extended his hand out and placed it behind her ear as he rubbed it softly. " Listen to me, there is no need to cry. I’m right here. Your too beautiful too cry. We've been through this I'm stronger than you'd ever imagine, I won't let anything happen to you again. I promise," He said as their eyes met. He wasn't quite sure why he was comforting her, but he couldn’t exactly help himself. It was no secret how different the two of them were, Padme was sweet, kind and  gentle; where as Anakin was repulsive, angry and even violent but somehow once  upon a time they had worked. He’d often tell Obi-Wan he couldn’t live without her though Obi-Wan didn’t agree he helped keep their secret. She's manipulating you. The words continued to play over and over in his mind and though it angered him, Anakin for the moment chose to disregard those thoughts temporarily. After a few moment passed, he pulled his hand away from Padme’s ear and just gazed at her for a moment before shifting his eyes away from her and letting out a sigh. 

Padme never looked at anakin, thoughts raced across her mind. She was sad, she was mad and everything in between. she was very determined to not talk to him today, to just stare at the waves and think of naboo. She enjoyed the beach, it always gave her a sense of calm. That’s why she loved naboo and tatooine so much. She felt him move down next to her and moved her eyes and head the other direction. She wasn’t mad at anakin, it just hurt to look at him. It hurt having him even remotely close to her. “Nothing could ever beat Naboo.” She said stiffly, trying to keep the pain out of her voice as she thought of their children. they would never know their parents and that broker her heart. Everything here seemed to remind her of naboo and what could have been with Anakin, with their kids. Padme felt broken, she felt lost and she didn’t know if she’d ever be put back together again. It was like she was a chipped porcelain doll that would break apart with a single gust of wind, even if fixed she’d never be the same again. “I don’t know. From what i’ve learned it’s what this island does Ani…” She turned her head forwards again, still not looking at him. God, it hurt having him so close and not being able to touch him. seeing him reminded her of her children and it made her heart hurt even more. She didn’t even hold them before she died. she sometimes wished she’d never woken up here.

Nothing could ever beat Naboo.I don’t know. From what I've learned it’s what this island does Ani…-As Anakin once again heard the stiffness from Padme’s voice, he glanced at her for a moment before pursing his lips out and shifting his gaze downward. “ Everything was simpler. I would have probably left my Jedi training for you if  you had asked me. I was that in love with you” Anakin said before rolling his head to the side and once again looking at the blue water. Though the beach was never his favorite place to be, there was no denying that the water had a calming feeling to it, a feeling he had only had one other time in his life, and that was whenever he had been with Padme. Padme had this effect on Anakin to almost make him not think logically because he  got so wrapped up in her. Obi-Wan would often challenge Anakin and tell him she was a mere distraction to his training. It was probably true but he couldn't help how he felt about her, she was the best thing that had ever happened to him and he would have done anything to keep her and their family together. Anakin was strong in the force, he was supposed to be able to keep any harm from her when in reality he was the harm that had hurt her in the end. As those thoughts entered Anakin’s mind, he tried to  ignore them but they wouldn't go away. Anakin could almost feel tears swelling in his eyes. The former Jedi closed his eyes in an attempt to stop the tears or light finding it’s way back to him. He wouldn’t let it, it would hurt too much. 

Padme would recognize that walk anywhere, plus it helped that he had a robotic arm that looked a lot like C3PO’s arm. The colors of the sun rise reflected off of his arm, catching her attention and no matter how hard it was to not look at her husband who was now shirtless with his back towards her and his arms raised to his chest she would not look at him. She pulled her legs to her, resting her chin on her knees, seconds later he spoke. Even if she wasn’t a senator anymore, this took her back to naboo once more and she choked on her words for just a second. “Anakin.” She stated dryly, her voice breaking on the last syllable of his name. Once upon a time, he would have made her heart flutter with love, not the sight of him makes it hurt with hope that one day she could stand by him and stare at the rising sun or sun set together once again. Padme was sad, not just because of anakin but because she didn’t know if her children were alive, because she couldn’t leave and go home to naboo, hide out somewhere no jedi, no senator or even Anakin could find her. Maybe that’s what she’d do here, find somewhere to just hide.

Very slowly Anakin pivoted his body around to Padme when he heard the harsh tone escape her lips.His eyes shifted down to Padme whose chin was now resting on her knees. Without any realization, Anakin felt a sudden burning sensation running through his chest,it almost felt as if his heart was collapsing. Anakin had never been good with Padme being mad at him and regardless of where they stood now, that didn’t seem to have gone away.Padme had never been the best at silent treatment, Anakin was always the distant one who very rarely spoke of his feelings. Very slowly he  shifted his weight to his right side before taking a seat next to her. The feeling of sand against his skin was an  irritating sensation that he hated. Sand was messy and got all over the place, but Padme always enjoyed the beach and sand, something Anakin never quite understood. The former Jedi shifted his eyes to the sand below him before moving his eyes back up to Padme and letting out a sigh. “ It’s not quite Naboo is it.” He said in almost a genuine tone. Though he’d never admit it out loud, he still had dreams of their trip. Palpatine often told Anakin to block those memories out, and that Anakin was resisting the dark force and all that it had to give him. Perhaps he was, but he couldn't find it in him to let go of Padme completely, she was too important to him and really the only family he had left for all intensive purposes. “Why are you here? You died. I felt it. “ Anakin said as his voice cracked. 

Padme stood on the beach, staring out into the vast blue ocean with the sun rising. it took her back to her time on Naboo with Anakin. Back when she was senator and someone had tried to kill her. It took her back to their first kiss, all the fun times they had. The longer she stood there and thought, the more her emotions rose.  Slowly, she sat on the beach. Back when she was senator she had never been allowed to wear anything less then formal. Here, she could wear shorts and a tank top and her hair down. It made her feel free and happy but she wouldn’t be happy here, this wasn’t home. She didn’t think it could ever be home.

When Anakin lost Padme, he became desynthesized to humanity and just let the dark force consume him. The power was intoxicating and gave the former Jedi control and strength.Once upon a time, he can recall dreaming about having a family with Padme and  raising their unborn child together.He can remember her warm smile  so excited of the news and the feeling that they could do this regardless of the orders from the Jedi. Anakin had never had a father, but he had promised Padme and himself he’d be one to their child but he had to save her but unfortunately failed; but never again would his powers fail him not with the dark force now on his side.With Padme alive, Anakin is gone and all he feels is anger and hatred towards her. Padme is a mere representation of his former weak self, a self he killed. As Anakin made his way to the beach on this island, he bent his elbow inward and began to pull off one sleeve of his cloak and feet  burying in the sand. Anakin  began to walk on the beach for a bit until he finally stopped and pivoted his body in the direction of  the blue ocean as he crossed both of his arms against the chest and just stood there. Moments passed and he just stared at the calm water until he finally spoke. " Senator  Amidala" Anakin said in almost a stiff tone without  turning to look at her. He could feel her presence behind him.