my friends get so much love and attention from boys and i know it’s because they’re skinny and pretty and thin and small and dainty and i’m not. i won’t be the friend left behind, the lone friend, the desperate friend. the third wheel. i will be skinny and pretty and everyone will see how much weight i’ve lost.

every time i walk to the kitchen and leave without eating anything i feel so proud of myself. i lost like 5 pounds in a week and a half and people say it’s unhealthy and dangerous but it’s working so well i cant stop. the euphoria i get from seeing my body shrink is addictive, even if i look deathly pale and tired