lofticriex

i’m so unhappy

do not understand how i’ve been eating like 1,200 calories a day and i’ve put on weight....??????

i wouldn’t change my brother for the world but i just wish i had a sibling that actually liked me and wanted to spend time with me i know it’s just who he is but it just kills me because i adore him so much, he’s my favorite person in the whole world but knowing i’m not the same to him fucking breaks my heart

im 5’2 and my 6’4 boyfriend is only 5lbs heavier than me lmao that’s how fucking fat i am now lol i hate me why is everyone in the world fucking skinny now apart from me

i need hellppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

i mean is wanting to be skinny even an eating disorder like people go on diets all the time and they don’t have disorders. don’t even know why i’m in a fucking group for this shit i just want to be skinny it’s not like it’s a fucking mental condition. i don’t need to talk to these other fat fuckers about their problems i don’t give a fuck about them. and i don’t want them to know my shit

started a therapy group for my eating disorder and literally five minutes in i had an anxiety attack and had to quit and now i can’t stop crying

although i feel fucking horrific because i have no energy at all in my body

actually kinda scared to eat now which is cool