Thinking about how Kakania is always explicitly choosing to do things that will undoubtedly get herself killed because she can frame it as trying to do good, to help people to make up for her mistakes. She is so self-destructive in a way that can only be seen as selfless, but she's not. She's not killing herself if it's something else that kills her. And yet the world refuses to let her take the easy way out. Every time she chooses to die, she lives and becomes more alone. Girlie probably goes to bed some nights hoping she doesn't wake up the next day














