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I used to have so much self despair and I really believed what people in my country told me about the reality and how much a dreamer I am.. If you live in Turkey, you should know that wanting to sing besides Turkish folk or pop music and being succesful on that is extremely hard. People in your country do not support you, they mostly do not listen that kind of music and you can't really find a position after you graduate.. Not even mentioning how much it is hard to even be accepted from a conservatory. In my city, which has almost 5 million population, there is only one conservatory for Opera training (which is the only option if you want to do music besides folk music) and they only take 5 out of 80 people just to finish 5 years of Opera training and be unemployed afterwards.. I have to work really hard to be one of the 5 and to be successfully graduated after 5 years of education.. And when I reach 23, I can finally start to work hard for my dreams.. That's why people call me a dreamer and make me think that I have an impossible goal.. But after I watched Taylor's documentary, I felt maybe I have a chance and I should never lose hope.. I can be nothing afterwards but at least I can say that I tried my best.. Because I know how much I love doing that and how much I deserve that.. Thank you for making me believe a little more @taylorswift  💗 I completely felt like I was looking at myself when I saw you with your mom sitting in the car at the age of 13.. 

British Vogue | January 2020 

Marc Jacobs Spring 2020 

- I’m very nervous about this post because this is not related to taylor, its about me. But i am sharing this with a purpose. Almost one and a half year i am suffering from a anorexic eating disorder. People think (i did too) that it is about losing weight and wanting to be thin, but its way more then that. I wasn’t happy with myself and was scared for the future and life. What started off as losing a bit of weight became my biggest nightmare. I am in therapy and have gained weight but not enough and its mentally the most exhausting thing ever. But Taylor is helping me cope with the pain. Her music gives me a break from the pain. She distracts me from it. From the bottom of my heart, thank u so so so much. For just helping me with this means more then u could imagine. @taylorswift @taylornation

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