forever missing you

gone silent ˚　✦　　　.　　. 　 ˚　.　　　 .

i don't know if that was you or not, but you seem upset. are you mad at me? are you waiting for me? are you angry because i gave up on you? maybe you are, and maybe i did, but i promise you're always on my mind and always in my heart.

if we had 86,400 years together, you've been gone from me for less than two seconds. i believe we have more time than that though, which in turn equals to less than a second in which you've been missing from me. i'm patient. i will wait. hopefully, you're waiting on the other side for me, too.

have you ever listened to bella kay, sweet thing?

i asked for a sign, and i did not get one. i think that is telling enough.

was it 2024 or 2025 that we last talked? it couldn't have been more than a year, could it?

"when will we break no contact?" i ask, but i know that really it's up to me even though you don't miss me.

i'm forgetting your face, your voice, your personality. i'm thinking it's for the better though. this thing we didn't have was fun while it lasted.

one day, i would've liked to be your favorite.

"just missing home" but they'll never know home isn't a place.

i think i realize now that it's not going to work out. you're not mine, even as i love you beyond infinity, and it's not okay but i will move past it.