★☽ Unknown World Inside Me; Always Falling And Raising★☽

I feel this platform always reminds me of you and I guess it’s no surprise you’re still active.

I came to reevaluate my old posts to reflect on my past and growth— and immediately upon log in, I came across a post of you.

I think about you all the time.

I wonder how you’re doing.

I hope life is treating you well and that you are SO happy surrounded by amazing people who know how incredible you are.

I miss our friendship.

So many times I wanna text you because I know you’ll appreciate and be equally excited about certain things.

I never wanted to lose you. But I understood you needed to break free from me. I get it. And I’m incredibly sorry for any harm I caused you. It was never my intention, but I know I caused harm. Even if that is the last thing I wanted.

I have done so much work on myself and I am now able to recognize how self destructive I was back then and how some of my own insecurities and internal issues over flooded and damaged others. I was so damaged but still wanting to make other feel whole. I wanted to make you happy because you deserved someone good who cared for you, truly you. And I SO wanted to be that person for you.

I wish I would’ve handled things differently. And maybe we would still have that amazing friendship we developed before the whirlwind nightmare of how it ended. I hope you have healed by now, because I was never worth your pain. You deserved a better, way way better.

I hope one day you’ll text me and we can catch up and be civil. Or maybe we will run into each other and able to smile at one another.