LoveBug

I feel less and less human every day.

I’m just waiting. Trying to enjoy however many smiles you have left to give me. Soak in your hugs. Memorize the scent of your favorite spray.

But at the same time, I’m already forgetting you. Forgetting us. Forgetting how good we used to feel.

I cry. The good memories are so good. But the bad ones, those are the only ones that ever counted to you.

I wish you knew the extent of the emotional damage you created in me. I know I did the same to you. But I promised to change, and i have. It hasn’t been good enough.

You haven’t changed, and I’m trying to make the best of it.

I hurt always. I’m sad always.

Why can’t you just..want this life with me?

What does a ring mean if you don’t really believe in what stand for?

I’m scared. I know it’s coming. I didn’t do anything wrong, but nothing I do is right.

I don’t understand what happened

I don’t know when you stopped thinking of me

I don’t know when you fell out of love

I don’t know why you can’t tell me you aren’t in love with me anymore

I don’t know why you’re hurting us..

If they make you happy and I/we are always last on your list..maybe with them is where you should be..