-wanderland-

Hi! How is everyone doing? Honestly, this time is very much depressing. Like, all the quarantine and restrictions are making me depressed. I am just not used to going out and about, but I do understand the need for it. I just hope and pray that all will be back to normal later than sooner.

You told me that you can’t feel anything, so you held my hand as we ride backseat to a place we’re both unfamiliar to. You played with my hand, told me that I have really small hands. You looked at me and the light crossed your face. You were blinded for a moment, but you looked back at me. You told me you don’t feel anything, but I saw everything on your face. And I wish I never saw any of it cause I can’t take it off my mind now. I realized now that I felt everything that night. I felt everything that I wasn’t supposed to feel. And I know you felt it all, too, but you were just too scared to admit it. And it’s okay. Love can be terrifying.

Will I ever be fine again?