🐘Little Emmerys🐧

Been a little over a year and a half since my last post. A lot has happened since than. Moved to Florida, been working on a degree in applied science, clinicals have been fun but trying. Not alot of time for fun outside of school though. A few months left and Im all done.

I'm going to be 30 in less than 8 days. I feel horrible, mad, sad, and hate. I hate the fact that I worked all the time. I'm mad that I wasted my 20s putting everyone else first. I'm sad because I made a faw friends, and I haven't gotten to meet them in person and most likely never will. I feel horrible because I have let myself down again and again. I have been a part of the ABDL community throughout my 20s. I only met one abdl one time, and they were not a good person to hang out with. I say I'm a big bro to a little one, but I haven't made much of an effort to be a big to him because I feel like no one really wants me arould and I will just make people mad. (Have my parents to thank for that thought train always being there). I have seen what being 30 and a little in this community is like. It is not nice. I want to be a little and have fun like I should of had before, but I feel like it is too late, and I wasted my chance. So if I want to be a part of this community, I would have to be a big, and I'm fine with that, but it hurts to know I missed out yet again. And no matter what anyone says, I will always feel uncomfortable being a little now.

It's my birthday today. It's a day full of dark past pains but I'm learning to slowly not let them get to me. Thank you for all the birthday wishes. On a different note I noticed that 394 of people follow me and that 394 more people then I am ready for and thought would like to know what I'm up to. Thank you all.