Mission: Be Happy

#lolamay sat on a rock today! #loveithere #redeemers #Godisgreat

I started a Tumblr because I thought it would help me be more accountable. I'm 25 years old. I have a three year rold and a fiancé, who isn't my daughter's bio dad, three dogs and three cats. I didn't finish college because my baby daddy was more important to me at the time and I'm swamped with debt. I work as an email support tech for an outsourcing company and sometimes I feel too qualified for my job. I'm unorganized and lazy, my house is messy, and I think my anxiety outbursts are a sign of the mental illness that runs in my family. I yell at my kid and my fiancé too much, and I know it and I'm ashamed. I eat like crap, and I'm getting close to 250lbs. The reason I started this tumblr was to help me be a better person. All it has done is make me angry with myself. That I can't commit to anything, or improve myself. I'm ashamed. I need help. So I don't know what happens from here, but I know something has to break. Even if it is me.

Before river riding, just imagine after. #placesforrestfallsalseep

#wearallthekitties Kitten wearing is the new thing for people who's babies outgrow their carriers.

#lolamay starts dance today. My littlest ballerina!

Gorgeous view! #loveithere #family